Memory Relapse

You know how there's that one thing that you do or don't do. You absolutely will refuse to do it or do it with all the earnestness you can muster. But you don't know why. I mean, you know you should, but you just can't remember why it is like that. It's like a bad taste that you never want to remember again.

And then one day you look at everyone else, doing (or not doing) what you are not (or are) and you really wonder why it is that you have decided to take this stance. It's like your anti- everyone else. Some people may think it's cool, especially since you are totally being anti-conformist and have made no real desire to take others thoughts into consideration about this one thing.

But then you start to want to be like them. Maybe it would make your life better. Maybe people would notice you. Maybe you wouldn't just sink into the background colours of grey and black and white. (Or maybe that's what you want).

But you don't want to stop doing what it is you've been doing because it's become a trademark for you. Everyone who knows you knows you do or don't do that thing. They don't know why but they know you. And you don't want to let those people down. You don't want to let yourself down.

And then you suddenly remember. Like an epiphany. One small memory tells you why it is like this...

Does that change everything?

the sky explodes and my heart it overloads

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Thirty. Your Favourite Song At This Time Last Year.

I don't remember. Facebook says he last band/artist I liked anywhere near that time was in May. So here you go. This version, not the new version.

The Envy - Don't Let Go

When it all comes crashing down
And you won't stop spinning round
You feel like you're falling from the clouds
But you never hit the ground

So take this stretch of road
We'll call it home
Just run away with me tonight

Just don't let go of me

Can a love like ours survive
In such cold uncertain times
I know that if you only hold me tight
We can make it through tonight

So lets run on down the interstate, and across the sea
Everywhere I go I wanna take you with me

Don't let go, of me
Don't let go, of me

And I close my eyes
And I think of you
We're gonna make it babe
We're gonna make it through

Just don't let go

Underneath my velvet skies
Forever in your eyes
I see reflections of the light
Just dance with me tonight

Overhead the sky explodes
And my heart it overloads
Throw your arms around my neck
And don't let go

We'll take this stretch of road
We'll call it home
Just run away with me
Just dont let go, of me

Don't let go, of me (x3)
Just don't let go

i come from a land from a faraway place

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Twenty-Nine. A Song From Your Childhood.

Every single song from a cartoon or movie haha.

Arabian Nights - Aladdin

most wonderful time of the year

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Twenty-Eight. A Song That Makes You Feel Guilty.

I can't say that a song makes me feel guilty. Maybe Christmas songs just because.

in the darkest depths of mordor i met a girl so fair

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Twenty-Seven. A Song That You Wish You Could Play.

Moby Dick - Led Zeppelin

because I can't play drums.

things that i would like to say to you

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Twenty-Six. A Song That You Can Play On An Instrument.

High & Dry is a favourite. But so is Wonderwall. And because I've done the first already you get the second.

 Wonderwall  - Oasis

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do, about you now

Back beat, the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I
Would like to say to you but I don't know how

Because maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all, you're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do, about you now

And all the roads that lead you there are winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I
Would like to say to you but I don't know how

[Repeat x2]
I said maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all, you're my wonderwall

don't make me laugh, ha ha ha ha

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Twenty-Five. A Song That Makes You Laugh.

I'm really not sure. Probably a really dumb song? Maybe that song from The Pebble and the Penguin "Don't Make Me Laugh" because it's so ridiculous you laugh at the laugh.

Don't Make Me Laugh

our claims to freedom

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Twenty-Four. A Song That You Want to Play At Your Funeral.

I honestly don't know. Whenever I hear this song I always think of funeral though.

Tears Fall - BarlowGirl

 I have had the same dreams many times it haunts my mind
It starts with a light but it ends every time
Oh so many faces that this world will never see
A reason for your life but your heart will never be

May our tears fall down
Let them soften this ground
May our hearts be found
God forgive us now

Oh what have we lost because we chose we'll never know
And loving you is better than feeling alone
And all our claims to freedom have become these heavy chains
And in the name of rights we keep filling nameless graves

Let the tears fall down
Let them soften this ground
Let our hearts be found
God forgive us now

Oooh

living for the only thing i know

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Twenty-Three. A Song That You Want to Play At Your Wedding.

Hanging By A Moment - Lifehouse 

Desperate for changing, starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started, I'm chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I'm lacking, completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation, you take all of me now

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There's nothing else to lose, there's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world that can change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else

Desperate for changing, starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started, I'm chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

Just hanging by a moment
Just hanging by a moment
I'm hanging by a moment
Just hanging by a moment here with you
 

to say what's on my heart

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Twenty-Two. A Song That You Listen To When You're Sad.

Call Your Name - Daughtry

You never said, you never said, you never said
That it would be this hard
Love is meant to be forever, now or never seems to discard
There's gotta be a better way for me to say
What's on my heart without leaving scars?
Can you hear me when I call your name?

And when you fall apart
Am I the reason for your endless sorrow?
There's so much to be said and with a broken heart
You walls can only go down but so low
Can you hear me when I call your name?

Complicated situations are the makings of all that's wrong
And I've been standing in the river of deliverance way too long
There's gotta be a better way for me to say
What's on my heart without leaving scars?
Can you hear me when I call your name?
So, can you hear me when I call your name?

And when you fall apart
Am I the reason for your endless sorrow?
There's so much to be said and with a broken heart
You walls can only go down but so low
Can you hear me when I call your name?  

ain't no friend of mine

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Twenty-One. A Song That You Listen To When You're Happy.

Hound Dog - Elvis Presley


You ain't nothin' but a hound dog
cryin' all the time.
You ain't nothin' but a hound dog
cryin' all the time.
Well, you ain't never caught a rabbit
and you ain't no friend of mine.

When they said you was high classed,
well, that was just a lie.
When they said you was high classed,
well, that was just a lie.
You ain't never caught a rabbit
and you ain't no friend of mine.

what the heart is longing for

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Twenty. A Song That You Listen To When You're Angry.

Pretty much.


King of the Closet - Blindside


I answer with a restless ok but I'm about to blow when you're gone
I keep this to myself; a restless ok but I fear the dawn
I've never been afraid to hide up in the dark
It's the first morning stream of pure light that makes me rather swim with the sharks
And it'll make me say I'm ok even though it hurts more if I stay
And I'm ok. Yes, I'm ok. If that'll make your questions go away

I'm a vampire, I'm afraid the light will set me on fire

I'm cold in a way I just want to stay
And I'm cold this way

Reckon I'll close the door
Pull down the curtains stay close to the floor
Mercy is for the weak; we do not train to be merciful here
Mercy is everything I fear; we do not train to see His mercy here

Crawling again
The heart is screaming with a smile
Pride says no because of the stain
The heart pounds for love, pride says no
Because of what the heart is longing for
I'm not sure I want to be a man anymore

This choice I've got to make,
I've got to make alone
A heart of stone
This choice I've got to make
I've got to make it true
A heart broken in two

every breath is a second chance

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Nineteen. A Song From Your Favourite Album.

From my fave ATM. This song always hits me. (from Hello Hurricane)

Always - Switchfoot 


This is the start, this is your heart
This is the day you were born
This is the sun, these are your lungs
This is the day you were born

And I am always yours

These are the scars deep in your heart
This is the place you were born
This is the hole where most of your soul comes ripping out
From the places you've been torn

And it is always yours
But I am always yours

Hallelujah, I'm caving in
Hallelujah, I'm in love again
Hallelujah, I'm a wretched man
Hallelujah, every breath is a second chance

And it is always yours
And I am always yours

you weren't suppose to let me fall

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Eighteen. A Song That You Wish You Heard On the Radio.

:)

Instant Star Me - This Riot Scene

I'll have to add lyrics later, maybe audio when I record some.

some dance to remember

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Seventeen. A Song That You Hear Often on the Radio.

Classic.

Hotel California - The Eagles 


On a dark desert highway, cool wind in my hair
Warm smell of colitas, rising up through the air
Up ahead in the distance, I saw shimmering light
My head grew heavy and my sight grew dim
I had to stop for the night
There she stood in the doorway;
I heard the mission bell
And I was thinking to myself,
'This could be Heaven or this could be Hell'
Then she lit up a candle and she showed me the way
There were voices down the corridor,
I thought I heard them say...

Welcome to the Hotel California
Such a lovely place (Such a lovely place)
Such a lovely face
Plenty of room at the Hotel California
Any time of year (Any time of year)
You can find it here

Her mind is Tiffany-twisted, she got the Mercedes Benz
She got a lot of pretty, pretty boys she calls friends
How they dance in the courtyard, sweet summer sweat.
Some dance to remember, some dance to forget

So I called up the Captain,
'Please bring me my wine'
He said, 'We haven't had that spirit here since nineteen sixty nine'
And still those voices are calling from far away,
Wake you up in the middle of the night
Just to hear them say...

Welcome to the Hotel California
Such a lovely place (Such a lovely place)
Such a lovely face
They livin' it up at the Hotel California
What a nice surprise (what a nice surprise)
Bring your alibis

Mirrors on the ceiling,
The pink champagne on ice
And she said 'We are all just prisoners here, of our own device'
And in the master's chambers,
They gathered for the feast
They stab it with their steely knives,
But they just can't kill the beast

Last thing I remember, I was
Running for the door
I had to find the passage back
To the place I was before
'Relax,' said the night man,
'We are programmed to receive.
You can check-out any time you like,
But you can never leave!'

brighter than the moon

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Sixteen. A Song You Use to Love But Now Hate.

This was incredibly hard. More like I just dislike it from hearing it all the freaking time. Overplayed on the radio much?

Firework - Katy Perry

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag,
drifting through the wind
wanting to start again?
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
like a house of cards,
one blow from caving in?

Do you ever feel already buried deep?
6 feet under screams but no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
'Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite, the light, and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe, awe, awe

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe your reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will glow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite, the light, and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, Oh, Oh"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe, awe, awe

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through-ough-ough

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, Oh, Oh"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, Oh, Oh"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe, awe, awe

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon  

no drug that they could sell

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Fifteen. A Song That Describes You.

What can I say? (I love Switchfoot.)

Mess of Me - Switchfoot

I am my own affliction
I am my own disease
There ain't no drug that they could sell
Ah, there ain't no drug to make me well

There ain't no drug
It's not enough
There ain't no drug
The sickness is myself

I made a mess of me
I wanna get back the rest of me
I've made a mess of me
I wanna spend the rest of my life alive

I've made a mess of me
I wanna get back the rest of me
I've made a mess of me
I wanna spend the rest of my live alive
The rest of my life alive

We lock our souls in cages
We hide inside our shells
It's hard to feed to the ones you love
Oh, when you can't forgive yourself
Yeah, forgive yourself

There ain't no drug
There ain't no drug
There ain't no drug
The sickness is myself

I made a mess of me
I wanna get back the rest of me
I've made a mess of me
I wanna spend the rest of my life alive

I've made a mess of me
I wanna reverse this tragedy
I've made a mess of me
I wanna spend the rest of my live alive
The rest of my life alive

Ahhhhooo

There ain't no drug
There ain't no drug
There ain't no drug
No drug to make me well

There ain't no drug
It's not enough
We're breaking up
The sickness is myself
The sickness is myself

I made a mess of me
I wanna get back the rest of me
I've made a mess of me
I wanna spend the rest of my life alive

I've made a mess of me
I wanna reverse this tragedy
I've made a mess of me
I wanna spend the rest of my live alive
The rest of my life alive

you think that's pretty clever

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Fourteen. A Song That No One Would Expect You to Love.

Well, I think this was the first Radiohead song I heard. I don't know if people would expect me to listen to them or not really.

High & Dry - Radiohead

Two jumps in a week
I bet you think that's pretty clever don't you boy?
Flying on your motorcycle,
Watching all the ground beneath you drop
You'd kill yourself for recognition,
Kill yourself to never ever stop
You broke another mirror,
You're turning into something you are not

Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry

Drying up in conversation,
You will be the one who cannot talk
All your insides fall to pieces,
You just sit there wishing you could still make love
They're the ones who'll hate you
When you think you've got the world all sussed out
They're the ones who'll spit at you,
You will be the one screaming out

Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry

It's the best thing that you ever had,
The best thing that you ever, ever had
It's the best thing that you ever had,
The best thing you ever had has gone away

Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry

and it takes my breath away

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Thirteen. A Song That Is a Guilty Pleasure.

Oh yes.

Naturally - Selena Gomez and The Scene


How you choose to express yourself
It's all your own and I can tell
It comes naturally
It comes naturally

You follow what you feel inside
It's intuitive, you don't have to try
It comes naturally
It comes naturally

And it takes my breath away
What you do so naturally

You are the thunder and I am the lightning
And I love the way you
Know who you are and to me it's exciting
When you know it's meant to be

Everything comes naturally, it comes naturally
When you're with me, baby
Everything comes naturally, it comes naturally
Bay-bay-baby

You have a way of moving me
A force of nature, your energy
It comes naturally
It comes naturally, yeah

And it takes my breath away
What you do, so naturally

You are the thunder and I am the lightning
{ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/s/selena-gomez-lyrics/naturally-lyrics.html }
And I love the way you
Know who you are and to me it's exciting
When you know it's meant to be

Everything comes naturally, it comes naturally
When you're with me, baby
Everything comes naturally, it comes naturally
Bay-bay-baby

When we collide sparks fly
When you look in my eyes
It takes my breath away

You are the thunder and I am the lightning
And I love the way you
Know who you are and to me it's exciting
When you know it's meant to be

Everything comes naturally, it comes naturally
When you're with me, baby
Everything comes naturally, it comes naturally
Bay-bay-baby

Naturally
Naturally
Naturally
Bay-bay-baby

Naturally
Naturally
Naturally
Everything, baby, comes naturally

Naturally
Naturally
Everything, baby, comes naturally

baby, baby, baby

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Twelve. A Song From a Band You Hate.

Ugh, what? Oh, not  band but I can't bring myself to actually listen to him seriously. Aaaand... this is a cover version.


Baby - Justin Beiber

can't handle the pressure?

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Eleven. A Song From Your Favourite Band.

A " top 5" band because I can't choose a favourite.


E For Extinction - Thousand Foot Krutch

I'm not the same as yesterday
Ooh...It's hard to explain
How things have changed
But I'm not the same as before
And I know there's so much more ahead
I can barely believe that I'm here
And I won't surrender quietly
Step up and watch me go

Break down, ya really want it?
Wanna make a scene?
Show me what ya mean
Let's get it started
Let me see whatcha got
Can ya take it up a knotch?
Don't think you got it
Can't handle the pressure?
Get, off, stop talkin' about it
Gotta make this count, let's go

When we move
We camouflage ourselves
We stand in the shadows waiting
We live for this and nothing more
We are what You created

I can feel the storm
The winds have changed
Ooh...'Cause we're worlds a part
But just the same
But we won't leave the way that we came
And I know there's so much more ahead
I can barely believe that we're here
We won't surrender quietly
Step up and watch it go

Are you ready? Are ya ready?
Are ya ready for me?
Are you ready? Are ya ready?
Are ya ready to see?

just listen

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Ten. A Song That Makes You Fall Asleep.

River Flow In You - Yiruma

creates a fever baby

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Nine. A Song That You Can Dance To.

Who can't dance to this song?

I Like to Dance - Hot Chelle Rae

Click clack shimmer 'n shine
Everybody's in a line now
Dressed up to the nines now baby

Silver, shiny, sexy, it's love and
The music's playing so loud
Disco balls and big crowds baby

Her eyes, they tell me what I need to know
Your touch tells me where I need to go
My lead will make you wanna get so close

Well I like to dance
So if you do just get on the floor
Forget the romance
This is what music was created for
So find someone hot
And if you're not it doesn't matter
Baby take what you got and
Just go dancing you'll feel better

I like to dance
I like to dance dance dance dance

Lovesick electric sex thoughts
Are flying all around me
He said, she said "let's leave" baby

Fashion lives alive in her dress
And her eyes'll never leave her
The song creates a fever baby

Her eyes, they tell me what I need to know
Your touch tells me where I need to go
My lead will make you wanna get so close

Well I like to dance
So if you do just get on the floor
Forget the romance
This is what music was created for
So find someone hot
And if you're not it doesn't matter
Baby take what you got and
Just go dancing you'll feel better

Lovesick, lovesick, ELECTRIC [x4]

(I like to dance) [x4]

Well I like to dance
So if you do just get on the floor
Forget the romance
This is what music was created for
So find someone hot
And if you're not it doesn't matter
Baby take what you got and
Just go dancing you'll feel better
[X2]

Lovesick, lovesick, ELECTRIC!

give my mind a new disease

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Eight. A Song That You Know All the Words To.

Long Way Down - Goo Goo Dolls

Oh here you are, there's nothing left to say
You're not supposed to be that way
Did they push you out? did they throw you away?
Touch me now and I don't care
When you take me I'm not there
Almost human, but I'll never be the same

Long way down, I don't think I'll make it on my own
Long way down, I don't want to live in here alone
Long way down, I don't think I'll make it on my own

I never put you down, I never pushed you away
You're not supposed to be that way
And anything you want, there's nothing I could say
Is there anything to feel?
Is it pain that makes you real?
Cut me off before it kills me

Long way down, I don't think I'll make it on my own
Long way down, I don't want to live in here alone
Long way down, I don't think I'll make it on my own

I never put you down, I never pushed you away
Take another piece of me
Give my mind a new disease
And the black and white world never fades to gray

Long way down, I don't think I'll make it on my own
Long way down, I don't want to live in here alone
Long way down, I don't think I'll make it on my own

i place in your hands

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Seven. A Song That Reminds You of a Certain Event.

I don't know if it's considered an even since it happens monthly, but I still remember the first time I sang this at Focus. Awesome.

Came to My Rescue - Hillsong United

Falling on my knees in worship
Giving all I am to seek your face
Lord all I am is yours

My whole life
I place in your hands
God of Mercy
Humbled I bow down
In your presence at your throne

I called you answered
And you came to my rescue and I
I wanna be where you are

(Repeat Previous 2 Stanzas)

In my life be lifted high
In our world be lifted high
In our love be lifted high

begins with newborn skin

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Six. A Song That Reminds You of Somewhere.

Needle and Haystack Life - Switchfoot


In this needle and haystack life

The world begins with new born skin
We are right now
You're needle girl in a haystack world
We are right now

You're breathing in the highs and lows
We call it living

In this needle and haystack life
I found miracles there in your eyes
It's no accident we're here tonight
We are once in a lifetime

Don't let go, don't give up hope
All is forgiven
You're breathing in, you're breathing in
We call it living

In this needle and haystack life
I found miracles there in your eyes
It's no accident we're here tonight
We are once in a lifetime

All is not lost, all is not lost
Become who you are
It happens once in a lifetime

In this needle and haystack life
I found miracles there in your eyes
It's no accident we're here tonight
We are once in a lifetime alive
We are once in a lifetime

In this needle and haystack
We are once in a lifetime

singing myself to sleep

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Five. A Song That Reminds You of Someone.

Two people actually.

Definitely Maybe - FM Static

I met a girl named Tara
And she lived in the heart of America
She liked black caddies,
Listened to Puff Daddy
And danced until her legs were sore.
She worked around a corner
At a diner with a grouchy owner
And her boyfriend Shady dates another girl named Katie,
He loves her definitely maybe…

Don't think I can take it,
Wake me when it's over..
She lives so far away,
I wish that it was closer…
I see you everyday,
I'm too scared to go over.
I wonder what she'd say,
I barely even know her…

And how much longer
Will this keep getting stronger?
I wonder what she's doing
When I'm singing myself to sleep…
Cause he's a faker,
So see ya later.
I wonder when you'll realize that she means
A lot more to me…

I saw you in the hallway
When my last class was just over
It was Friday, school was out
Tonight, everything seems to be alright.
I said,
"Yo, are you going to the party at the cove?"
She said,
"He's picking me up at 6 again,
and I don't wanna disappoint my boyfriend."

And how much longer
Will this keep getting stronger?
I wonder what she's doing
When I'm singing myself to sleep…
Cause he's a faker,
So see ya later.
I wonder when you'll realize that she means
A lot more to me…

And she's staring at his picture hanging in her locker,
She's telling all the girls about all the things that he bought her.
I saw what really happened all those time he went for water,
When we were at the movie theatre
Watching Harry Potter.
He had his hands on
Every single girl he laid his eyes on.
Hate to break it to ya,
He's a pylon.
And even when he kissed her,
He was looking over staring at her sister.

And how much longer
Will this keep getting stronger?
I wonder what she's doing
When I'm singing myself to sleep…
Cause he's a faker,
So see ya later.
I wonder when you'll realize that she means
A lot more to me…

I met a girl named Tara
And she lived in the heart of America
She liked black caddies,
Listened to Puff Daddy
And danced until her legs were sore.
She worked around a corner
At a diner with a grouchy owner
And her boyfriend Shady dates another girl named Katie,
He loves her definitely maybe…

always wanted but never was

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Four. A Song That Makes You Sad.

I know its not the saddest song in the world but I always feel a little sad when I listen to it.

Heart - The Pretty Reckless

Never wanted to feel
Never wanted you to steal my heart
Never wanted you to know
Never wanted to show I'm weak

I'm falling all over myself
Trying to be someone else
I wish you would dare to walk me home
So I wouldn't have to feel alone

Always wanted to be
Always wanted you to see my heart
Always wanted your love
Always wanted but never was

I"m falling all over myself
Trying to be someone else
I wish you would dare to walk me home
So I wouldn't have to feel alone

I'm falling all over myself
Dying to be someone else
I wish you would dare to walk me home
I don't wanna fight the world alone

Told you before
I've never loved you more

I'm falling all over myself
Trying to be someone else
I wish you would dare to walk me home
So I wouldn't have to feel alone

I'm falling all over myself
Dying to be someone else
I wish you would dare to walk me home
I don't wanna fight this world alone
I don't wanna fight this world alone
I don't wanna fight this world alone

All alone

but i have no doubt

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Three. A Song That Makes You Happy.

I don't know. It just does.

Lovers in Japan [Osaka Sun Mix] - Coldplay

Lovers, keep on the road you're on

Runners, until the race is run
Soldiers, you've got to soldier on
Sometimes even right is wrong

They are turning my head out
To see what I'm all about
Keeping my head down
To see what it feels like now
But I have no doubt
One day, we're gonna get out

Tonight maybe we're gonna run
Dreaming of the Osaka sun
Oh, oh
Dreaming of when the morning comes
They are turning my head out
To see what I'm all about
Keeping my head down
To see what it feels like now
But I have no doubt
One day the sun will come out

sound of silence

30 Day Song Challenge. Day Two. Your Least Favourite Song.

Honestly, I have no idea. Probably some lame-wad cartoon theme song or an annoying jingle. That or some gansta singing about money, shooting people up, riding fast cars, and chicks. Mhmm.

I'm done.

it's a shame i'm a dream

30 Day Song Challenge. Day One. Your Favourite Song.

I really can't say that I have an absolute favourite song because I love so many. So here is one of my favourite songs at this particular moment.

All I Wanted - Paramore

Think of me when you're out, when you're out there
I'll beg you nice from my knees
When the world treats you way too fairly
It's a shame i'm a dream
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you

I think I'll pace my apartment a few times
And fall asleep on the couch
And wake up early to black and white re-runs?
That escaped from the mouth

Oh-Oh

All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you

I could follow you to the beginning
And just relive the start
And maybe then we'll remember to slow down
To all of our favorite parts

All I wanted was you

All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you

This Ain't Your Parent's Music

The 30 Day Song Challenge

Day 01 – Your favorite song

Day 02 – Your least favorite song

Day 03 – A song that makes you happy

Day 04 – A song that makes you sad

Day 05 – A song that reminds you of someone

Day 06 – A song that reminds of you of somewhere

Day 07 – A song that reminds you of a certain event

Day 08 – A song that you know all the words to

Day 09 – A song that you can dance to

Day 10 – A song that makes you fall asleep

Day 11 – A song from your favorite band

Day 12 – A song from a band you hate

Day 13 – A song that is a guilty pleasure

Day 14 – A song that no one would expect you to love

Day 15 – A song that describes you

Day 16 – A song that you used to love but now hate

Day 17 – A song that you hear often on the radio

Day 18 – A song that you wish you heard on the radio

Day 19 – A song from your favorite album

Day 20 – A song that you listen to when you’re angry

Day 21 – A song that you listen to when you’re happy

Day 22 – A song that you listen to when you’re sad

Day 23 – A song that you want to play at your wedding

Day 24 – A song that you want to play at your funeral

Day 25 – A song that makes you laugh

Day 26 – A song that you can play on an instrument

Day 27 – A song that you wish you could play

Day 28 – A song that makes you feel guilty

Day 29 – A song from your childhood

Day 30 – Your favorite song at this time last year

and i'm free fallin'

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Thirty. A picture of you and your best friend.

don't, don't, don't, don't. don't you

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Twenty-Nine. A picture of yourself.

this one's for the people

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Twenty-Eight. A picture of what you wore today.

This concept but totally different clothes. And not from AE... though their shorts are comfy.

i scream, you scream, we all scream

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Twenty-Seven. A picture of you more than 10 years ago.

i've got another confession to make

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Twenty-Six. A picture that makes you angry.

don't let go of me

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Twenty-Five. A picture that you edited.

cropped, made brighter, changed colours

work all day, work all night

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Twenty-Four. A picture of what you did today.

sometimes it ain't enough

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Twenty-Three. A picture that describes your life.

Pretty much.

these boots were made for walking

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Twenty-Two. A picture of yourself.

you got style but you ain't got soul

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Twenty-One. A picture that makes you think of your loved ones.

take me away, there's nothing left to say

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Twenty. A picture of where you want to honeymoon.

are you listening?

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Nineteen. A picture of your favourite musical instrument(s).

music is my boyfriend

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Seventeen. A picture of your mp3 player.

listen to it ring but no one's home

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Sixteen. A picture of your dream cell phone.

Something like this. I'd look at the different provideres first though.

I don't want to fight you

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Fifteen. A picture of yourself.

i look at all the lonely people

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Fourteen. A picture of your favourite teacher(s).

This totally isn't her but she looks 'scary' similar.

here we are, whatcha gonna do?

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Thirteen. A picture of your friends.

break out, get me some take out

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Twelve. A picture of your favourite food.

drink up me hearties, yo ho!

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Eleven. A picture of your favourite drink.

play for me one more time

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Ten. A picture of what you like to do.

She'd given up the cheese and bacon, sworn off Burger King

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Nine. A picture of what you had for lunch.

hey, whataya want from me?

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Eight. A picture of yourself.

for the rain to fall

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Seven. A picture that makes you cry.

I can't. Not because I cry but it makes me sick to my stomach. At least there is rejoicing too.

Link

acts like summer, walks like rain

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Six. A picture that inspires you.

I found this on a google search once. I was just totally inspired by it for no real reason.
Drops of Jupiter.

it's the hard knock life

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Five. A picture of your morning.

motor runnin', head out on the highway

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Four. A picture of where you went today.

let my feet hit the ground

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Three. A picture of what you did today.

Just one of many things to do out at the lake...

don't seem to fit you and me anymore

30 Day Photo Challenge Day Two. A picture of what you wore today.

all i know is everybody loves me

30 Day Photo Challenge Day One. A picture of Yourself.

Look Here Y'all Y'all

Photo Challenge!

Day 01 - A picture of yourself
Day 02 - A picture of what you wore today
Day 03 - A picture of what you did today
Day 04 - A picture of where you went today
Day 05 - A picture of your morning
Day 06 - A picture that inspires you
Day 07 - A picture that makes you cry
Day 08 - A picture of yourself
Day 09 - A picture of what you had for lunch
Day 10 - A picture of what you like to do
Day 11 - A picture of your favorite drink
Day 12 - A picture of your favorite food
Day 13 - A picture of your friends
Day 14 - A picture of your favorite teacher(s)
Day 15 - A picture of yourself
Day 16 - A picture of your dream cell phone
Day 17 - A picture of your mp3 player
Day 18 - A picture of your room
Day 19 - A picture of your favorite musical instrument(s)
Day 20 - A picture of where you want to honeymoon
Day 21 - A picture that makes you think of your loved ones
Day 22 - A picture of yourself
Day 23 - A picture that describes your life
Day 24 - A picture of what you did today
Day 25 - A picture that you edited
Day 26 - A picture that makes you angry
Day 27 - A picture of you more than 10 years ago
Day 28 - A picture of what you wore today
Day 29 - A picture of yourself
Day 30 - A picture of you and your best friend

these are the scars deep in your heart

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Thirty. Your reflection in the mirror.

Dear Self,


You are like the ugly duckling; you weren't much to look at when you were going through junior high and high school. The crazy hair, the braces, bad skin, baggy clothes, scrawny kid; nothing changed during those years. But in the last few years you have become an elegant woman. True, there are days when you still have crazy hair but you play it off as the weather permits, the bad skin is only due to hormones (which means nothing can be done so deal by covering it up with concealer!), nothing to wear, and uncomfortable in your own skin. 
BUT. You have beautiful natural waves so play them up! You will never have bad teeth again so keep them good. Always keep your skin clean and moisturized. You have an amazing wardrobe and should give some of it away to those who have nothing. And you have a fantastic body. I mean, look at that tanned skin, those long toned legs, those strong hands and arms! You have come a long way from what you use to be. And it isn't always easy when you look at other girls. But you don't wear make-up and can't expect to look certain ways without it. You are nothing that you aren't, you have never pretended to be. And that's what makes me love you most. Never change that; never be something you aren't for anyone. I'm so proud of you.


Love You Incredibly Much.

the ways two hearts can meet, we were made to collide

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Twenty-Nine. The person you want to tell everything to but are too afraid to.

(I suppose I am writing this letter to a future time and future person but I think that is okay. This is real; this is how I feel)

Dear Future Husband,


       You don't know how hard it is for me to write this. Not only because I don't know who you are or if I've even ever met you (I actually hope to God I haven't) but because I find it so hard to open myself up to people. I hate being vulnerable and setting myself up for any hurt that may follow that. I need you to know that that is how I am and I am not trying to hurt you. One day I will let you know every little thing of importance but it will not be easy for me. I have been hurt before. I am ready to hurt again but it will be different because it will be with you the person I would give my very life for. I know you would never intentionally hurt me but want to share in my own hurt and be vulnerable with me. That concept is so lovely to me and I cannot wait for the time when I share everything with you so we can grow together fully. You will harvest my love and respect. There may be times I will not tell you things because of the love and respect I have for you so be patient with me and understand that it is because of you that I have made that choice.


Your Love,
B

throw up you rockfist if you're feelin it when I drop this

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Twenty-Eight. Someone that changed your life.

Dear Katie,


       Yes you have changed my life in the best way possible. You are the one friend I feel who can be totally high on Jesus all the time and who I can talk about spiritual things freely with at all times. You push me to be a better Christian, thanks so much for that! You push me to know Him better and learn new things about myself through him.

       You want to know how I am, just saying 'fine' won't cut it with you and even if I'm not in the mood to talk about it I will anyways with you. The silences between us are never awkward but rather reflective as I think about the good and bad times I've had you as a friend. Even through the hard times in your life you counted me as a friend even if you didn't want to share everything. It's just been in the last little while we've actually this close (but I enjoy going over to your Grandma's to drink tea and hang out in your rad room).

        Hopefully we can hang out again before you move to Calgary for school. Haha maybe you'll meet a guy there ;) Just kidding! Kinda....

Love!
McFly

we're breaking free, and making history

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Twenty-Seven. The friendliest person you knew for only one day.

Dear Britt & Courtney,


       You two are the friendliest girls I've ever meet! You aren't afraid to come up and start talking to new people in your church. If I lived in town I would totally go to that church just because you two are there and made me feel so welcome! Even though your cousins were visiting you made sure you got to know us. I hope to go back next year and see you both again and hear how you (and the rest of your family) are doing. 


Beth

people will come and they'll go

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Twenty-Six. The last person you made a pinky promise to.

Dear Last Person I Made a Pinky Promise To,


I don't remember who you are, or what we promised, but I hope we kept that promise or both were okay with the outcome.


Sincerely the Other Pinky Promiser.

a thousand to one and a million to two

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Twenty-Five. The person you know who is going through the worst of times.

Dear A,


I know this probably isn't easy for you. I was shocked when I heard and it seems like many of your friends were. I don't know what to say but like T said, if there is anything we can do for you don't hesitate to ask. We're here for you. So many of us are sticking by you so fight on!


Yours truly, Smiley

i know what i gotta do

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Twenty-Four. The person that gave you your favourite memory.

Dear Me,


I can't remember my favourite memory but I'm sure it had to include myself somehow so thanks for the good times.


Love Me Always.

how it feels to kiss those lips, but your kiss is not for him

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Twenty-Three. The last person you kissed.

Dear Nobody,

      I have kissed nobody, or at least not in the way I think they mean. I just don't want to go throwing my kisses around to just anybody so if I kiss nobody it is better in the long run for me not getting a broken heart.

B

always hard to hold, so letting go ain't easy

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Twenty-Two. Someone you want to give a second chance to.

Dear you.


I know we haven't been close to each other in the last little while but I wish we were. I know things will never go back to how they use to be but that's okay too. Sometimes when something is given up better things will come out of it.


There are so many things that I want to tell you that I haven't and so many things that I want to ask you but am too scared to. I know you may never see this but I hope you do. Even if you commented anonymously and said something that only we know, I would know that I could say everything that I want. 


So maybe I want to give you a second chance. But I also hope that you will give me a second chance too.
From your (ex?) Best friend (?)

if everything goes wrong keep singing this song

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Twenty-One. Someone you judged by their first impression.

Dear Brandi


       I guess I kinda judged you on your first impression seeing as you were my grade 6 buddy when I was in grade 2. Well I guess I thought you were really cool because I remembered you from then when we met again. And I was totally right but you were also a lot cooler than what I thought too.

       You have become a Godly woman I look up to with great respect and are one of my mentor's who I feel like I can come to with any problem whatsoever and you will give me an answer full of wisdom and love. You also supply good laughs :) 

        So I guess my first impression of you wasn't bad or wrong but it was far narrower than our relationship now is like. Thanks for being there for me.

In Love,
Beth

forget and not slow down than gather regret

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Twenty. The one that broke your heart the hardest.

Dear Boy,


      If we were going out my heart would have been smashed into tiny little fragments that would be unable to be glued back together completely for a long time. If I had known every little thing about you it would have crushed me so hard that I could no longer breathe as I was floating in space trying to find some oxygen.


       As it is, we never went out and so you never really broke my heart and so that is that. :)


B

again, racing through my brain

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Nineteen. Someone that pesters your mind - good or bad.

Dear Swiss Chalet guy,


      Yes you pester my mind. Gah. You are pretty cute though so that's okay. Minus that hideous "mom" tattoo on your arm. But the first time I saw you working there and I was checking you out and totally didn't notice you were looking at me until it was too late to make it unobvious was pretty funny. And you laughed after :) And then the next time I went in and there you were and I was trying not to be obvious this time when I looked at you but you kept looking at me.And when we left you were still looking. It made my heart glad. 


The next time you weren't there and all I can say is that I hope you haven't quit. Because I really actually want to talk to you. Until next time (if you haven't quit by then).


Beth

the restless soul is searching

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Eighteen. The person you wish you could be.

Dear Jesus,


      I wish I could be more like you. But I fail so hard and miserably. You know that but you always pick me back up time and time again (thank you) and tell me to keep trying. I will because you believe in me and love me despite what I am because you know me better than I will ever know myself. Thank you.

Love,
Beth

losing ground and gaining speed, i've lost myself

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Seventeen. Someone from your childhood.

Dear Dustin S.,

      I don't think you will ever read this because I didn't write out your last name. Your last name is so weird anyways but I remember how to spell it so HA. We always called each other by our last names which was kind of cool since no one else did that ever. I knew you from the beginning of grade 5 to near the end of 7. You were my best guy friend that whole time and, in elementary we would hang out almost every day at least once, usually during lunch recess. I don't remember if it was in grade 5 or 6 but you broke your arm or something and had it in a sling but you still played catch with me and were pretty dang good. That's probably one of my favourite memories of you. That and Nick B. and you would sometimes call me Beefaroni. Real lame guys.


One time someone told me that we should totally go out and at the time I wanted to gag because you were my best guy friend and I couldn't see you that way. Now I wonder why I didn't because you made me laugh and were cute and liked hanging out with me. Oh man, how embarrassing. I really hope you never read this haha.


I don't think you will and secretly that makes me sad. I can't find you on facebook and I wonder what happened to you. One time I think I saw you at the Hangers in Capilano mall but I couldn't tell and I was with a friend so I didn't want to run over and see. One of my few regrets, though it doesn't really matter. I just hope you didn't land yourself in jail. And if you did you are dumb and you are so much better than that kinda crap. Or at least you were when I knew you. Indeed. I just wish I knew what happened to you, at least to set my mind at ease.


Beth

there's no one in town I know

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Sixteen. Someone that's not in your state/country.

Dear Ian & Danielle,


      I wish I could have written this on day nine instead because it would make way more sense. But you are also not in the same province so it is all good.


      I am super excited to finally talk to you guys for the first time in my life! I don't even know what to say but I am thankful for facebook actually being useful for once. I hope I get to know you guys better and that we can meet someday. It is so crazy cool/weird how many interests we have in common. Super crazy! Anyways, like I said I hope we can meet one day but until then it is good just meeting you guys and learning how ya'll are.


Beth

waiting in my room for you, you were waiting for me too

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Fifteen. The person you miss most.

Dear Marty,


      You are indeed the person I miss most at this time. Because we haven't seen each other in like two years (give or take 20 minutes. That doesn't count). And we obviously have each grown so much since then and we just need to talk and get to hear about each other's lives. Coffee and two days in August.


Love McFly.

do you see me? because i think i see you.

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Fourteen. Someone you've drifted away from.

Dear Kristina,


       What happened to us? We were best friends from kindergarten and now we barely talk to each other. Which is pretty bad since we go to the same school. When you changed schools after grade 7 I felt so lost and it was so hard for me. Probably because I lost such a good friend/walking buddy/project partner. I loved how we would have our 'fights' which were nothing more than small bickers. And how we would always have to be partnered with Coleen because we were the only ones nice enough to let her join our group. The way that we would do each others homework (you got science and math and me, I got social and LA) it was good times.


I know that you have your own set of friends and I have mine and we didn't have any classes because you are doing a B.Sc and I'm a B.A and I was already taking 200/300 level courses. But maybe, if we're lucky, we'll have a class together. It would be pretty rad.


Anyways you'll always remain a good friend of mine even if we hang out 0% of the time. 


Beth

take your cheap shots, i've never been too proud to sin

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Thirteen. Someone you wish could forgive you.

Dear Jenny M.,


      I'm sorry if I've hurt you in some way. It was a long time ago and maybe you don't even remember me. I don't think I ever meant to hurt you but you were always pushing back against anyone who tried to be your friend. So when people started to purposely hurt you, you'd already taken away any support you would have had. I always watched when people would target you when we played dodge-ball and I never knew what to do. And I always felt guilty that I knew they were doing that. Even your so-called-friends that you made for yourself would do that to you. 

Maybe you were just waiting for that one person who would go up and beyond the effort to be your friend. But I couldn't do that. And I'm sorry for that. And I'm sorry that I didn't stick up for you when people were hurting you. Because I know they would have listened to me.


Beth

everything that i'm made of starts to melt away

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Twelve. The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain.

Dear Self, 

       Why do you do those things that you know you shouldn't? You hear the voice telling you that you will regret it and yet there you go anyways. And you do regret it. Always. It needs to stop. When that happens go play a video game or, better yet, look at the paper and look at all the murders and deaths. You don't want to be the one doing those things.


You were doing so much better for a time there and then something snapped back. You can blame the people. But it comes down to who's the bigger man here. And you can't be that if you go ahead and do things you're going to regret. You know that its the truth.


Love,
Yourself.

let's don't let a good thing die

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Eleven. A deceased person you wish you could talk to.

Dear Elvis,


      I wish you could have lived longer (like Johnny Cash did) or at least gone out in style (not fat). Anyways I want to tell you that I love your music. I wish I could have actually gone to a concert of yours in your prime. It would be something to remember the rest of my life. But your music makes me happy and I can feel the passion you had for singing and making the music. So thanks for being such an inspiration and leaving the world with something great behind.


Beth

we're here now feeling the beat of a thousand hearts

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Ten. Someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like to.

Dear Paula,

      I loved seeing you and talking to you when you came by my house to drop off my birthday gift. I feel bad because I never got you anything for your birthday. But don't worry I will next year because it is your big 2-0! Oh yeah! Anyways I see you working sometimes when I pop into your store but you always are helping customers so I decide not to be rude. But if I notice you are not busy I will jump on that moment and talk to you =)

You are one of my oldest friends! Thanks for wanting to continue on our friendship through the last 13 or so years! 


Beth

completely incomplete, i'll take your invitation

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Nine. Someone you wish you could meet.

Dear Jason Wade,


      I know you will never read this because you probably have next to zero time to be on a computer looking up fan letters on random blogs while you are touring. Maybe you would wonder why I chose to write this letter (someone you wish you could meet) to you. I know you were here recently on tour with your band but I wasn't able to go to the concert.


       Anyways the reason I want to meet you is to tell you how much your songs mean to me. I have 'grown up' with them and every cd carries different memories. My sister recently told me that she loved your first albums but not the last couple. I disagreed; as I've grown and changed so has your music. Everything needs to change in order to grown and get better. I guess I just understand every single song you've made and how it fits into my life. So thanks for making fantastic music that I can listen to, understand, and grow with. I'll be looking forward to your next album. Hanging By a Moment will be my favourite song until I die. So thanks.


Beth.