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Friday 24 September 2010

Memory Relapse

You know how there's that one thing that you do or don't do. You absolutely will refuse to do it or do it with all the earnestness you can muster. But you don't know why. I mean, you know you should, but you just can't remember why it is like that. It's like a bad taste that you never want to remember again.

And then one day you look at everyone else, doing (or not doing) what you are not (or are) and you really wonder why it is that you have decided to take this stance. It's like your anti- everyone else. Some people may think it's cool, especially since you are totally being anti-conformist and have made no real desire to take others thoughts into consideration about this one thing.

But then you start to want to be like them. Maybe it would make your life better. Maybe people would notice you. Maybe you wouldn't just sink into the background colours of grey and black and white. (Or maybe that's what you want).

But you don't want to stop doing what it is you've been doing because it's become a trademark for you. Everyone who knows you knows you do or don't do that thing. They don't know why but they know you. And you don't want to let those people down. You don't want to let yourself down.

And then you suddenly remember. Like an epiphany. One small memory tells you why it is like this...

Does that change everything?

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