Sunday, 30 March 2008


I, am scared.

Mutinous Waves of Self Inflicting Torture.

The mind plays tricks, watching the clock.

How can you do this to yourself?

Wednesday, 26 March 2008


by The Rocket Summer

I'm not feeling touch,

I'm not making that much,
And I guess I am blessed,
But sometimes its just hard to see it as such.

I'm stuck and alone in the traffic lines,
While couples in love in the H-O-V fly by,
I don't get it,
I'm not asking for much,
But everybody wants to just have something.

So I'll be picking me up,
Breaking me down,
I was lost, was i found?
I want to feel everything.
When everything feels wrong with me.
Take a look,
And brace myself,
Everybody wants to make it count.

Save me,
Because I can never float
Amaze me,
And I would be there holding on for life.

Sitting again,
Sitting inside this drab apartment,
The walls are blank,
Its like they're talking to me.
I put a picture on the wall.
I took a chance, I took a fall.
She took off fast and gracefully.
Yes I was blind and now I see.

And I was picking me up,
Breaking me down,
I was lost, was I found?
I want to feel everything
When everything feels wrong.
Take a look,
And brace myself,
Everybody wants to make it count.

Save me,
Because I can never float
Amaze me,
And I would be there holding on for life.

And I could tell
From the picture I could feel,
I was sinking.
Pull me out,
Bring me back to life.
The colors
That my eyes had never seen,
Well I am seeing now.

Save me,
Because I can never float
Amaze me,
And I would be there holding on for life.

Save me,
Cause I can never float.
Amaze me,
And I would be there holding on for life.

So save.. me.
Save.. me.
Save me.

Sunday, 23 March 2008

... And even more Questions!

1. How old will you be in 3 birthdays?

2. Do you think you'll be married by then?
maybe =O How scary.

3. What do you look forward to most in the next 3 months?
being done school.

4. Who was the last person you called?

5. Have you ever played a team sport?

6. Who was the last person to text you?

7. Who are the last 3 people you hugged?
storme, bryce, peter.

9. What happened at 11:00 a.m today޲

10. How many states have you visited?
a few.

11. If you could be anywhere right now, where would it be޲
with friends.

12. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
it depends really.

13. When was the last time you cried޲
i don't remember at the moment.

14. What was the last thing you drank޲

15. Favorite ice cream޲

16. What is your favorite number?
twenty three.

17. Whats your favorite color(s)?

18. What jelly do you put on your PBJ޲

19. Do you like coffee޲

20. How many bottles of water do you drink on average?
a little.

21. What do you drink in the morning?
juice or milk.

22. Would you rather kiss a snake or an armadillo?

23. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?

24. Do you know how to play poker?

25.޲ What's so good about Friday?
cause then its the weekend.

26. Any plans for this week?
unfortunately yes.

27. Do you eat out or at home more often?

28. How big is your TV޲
bigger then our last one.... but not huge

29. Ever stolen a street sign?

30. Do you keep a piggy bank?
not anymore.

31. What kind of camera do you have?
an old low res one.

33. Do you prefer the ocean or a pool?
ocean i should think.

34. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat?

35. Do you know how to drive a stick shift?
no but Jeremy is going to lend me his car so i can.

36. What is your favorite thing to spend money on޲
cds, clothes and food i guess.

37. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?

38. Do you speak any other language?
little spanish.

39. Can you roll your tongue?

40. Who is the funniest person you know?
a lot of my friends.

41. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
no really.

42. What is the main ring tone on your phone?
i don't have a phone.

43. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
don't think so.

44. What is the color of your bedroom walls?
white with a green tinge.

45. Do you shut off the water when you brush your teeth?

46. Are you crushing on someone right now?

47. Who޲
did i say i did޲

48. What are you doing tomorrow?
sleeping in.

49. Are you nervous?


Ever given your all to someone who walked away?

Does someone love you?
i believe so.

Is there someone you know you should hate, but you can't?

Do you like someone as more than a friend right now?

What does your 8th text say?
i don't have that many.

Have you ever lost anybody close to you?

Is there anyone you trust even though you should not?

Ever loved someone that wasn't good for you?

How's your heart lately?
on a roller coaster.

The last song you listened to?
broken heart parade

If you could change your name to anything what would it be?
i wouldn't.

What do you hate about your school?

Would you move to another country to be with the one you love?
maybe; really depends on the entire situation.

Which one of your friends do you think would make a good prostitute?
none, oh maybe curtis! j/k

Are you afraid of falling in love?
a little

What are you wearing right now?
t-shirt, jeans, socks

Favorite juice?

Ever been to Mexico?

Are you a forgiving person?

Are you talking to someone while doing this?

What school plays were you part of in elementary school?
Christmas plays.

What do you want to do with your life?
be happy.

If a bear attacked you, would you know how to defend yourself?
do the bear roll and cover my face... either that or the doritos commercial

Do you think it would be more fun to model or to shoot the photographs?
depends on the camera, set, and clothing

Are you younger than 21?

Do you like winter?

Are you in a relationship?

Do you like fruit?

How clean is your room?
lol not at all.

What are you excited for?
sarah finally coming down soon!.

Do you have feelings for anyone?

Do you fall for guys/girls easily?
not really.

Do you know someone named Dan?

Has anyone ever mistaken you for a family member?

What do you currently want to scream at the top of your lungs?
lots of things.

Are you named after a grandparent?

Say you were given a pregnancy test right now. Would you pass it or fail it?
pass? I'm def. not preggers.

Favorite pop-tart flavor?

Do you know anyone in jail/prison?

What are your plans for the weekend?
sleep in

Do you like the color green?

Who was the last person to send you a text message?

Ever driven into the ghetto to buy drugs?
ha no.

Favorite kind of candy?
sour candies.

Last voice mail you received?
no clue.

What did you do yesterday?
went to the game and chilled after.

How many hours did you sleep for last night?
about 8.

Milkshakes or Blizzards?

Who's the last person that you felt was stalking you?
my friends XD.

Have you ever been on your school's track team?
not this school.

What jewelry are you wearing?
ROPES bracelets.

If all your friends were going on a road trip, would you go?

Favorite drink?
root beer.

Is your phone right beside you?

Is there something bothering you?
kinda but w.e.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
i hope.

Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
when i have too.

What is the color of your bedsheets?
black with bright green-ish stripe designs.

Have you ever crawled through a window?

Are you happy at this very second?

Where do you spend most of your time at?
school andwork.

What was the last thing you did?
went for a 15-20 min bike ride.

Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings?

What time is it?
ten to the five seven

Have you ever changed your clothes in a vehicle?
once maybe

What are you doing in 2008?
stuff. living.

What is your ring tone?
nothin. it is none existent

What were you doing at 12am last night?
listening to music.

Question Time

Flowing Strapless Dress

Feminine yet chic, you are a traditional romantic who still knows how to party!

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy:

Your propensity for monogamy is high.

You find it easy to be devoted and loyal to one person.

And in return, you expect the same from who you love.

Any sign of straying, and you'll end things.

Experience Level:

Your experience level is medium.

You probably have had a couple significant loves.

And you may have even had your heart broken.

But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people.


Your dominance is low.

This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced.

You know a relationship is not about getting your way.

And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom.


Your cynicism is medium.

You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love...

But you've definitely been burned enough to know better.

You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist.


Your independence is high.

You don't need to be in love, and sometimes you don't even want love.

Having your own life is very important for you...

Even more important than having a relationship.

Your Life is 60% Green

Your life is pretty green - and you know a lot about how to live an eco friendly life.

So congratulate yourself for being good to the earth. And maybe think about implementing some of the ideas from this quiz!

Your Heart is Blue and Green

Your heart is open and dynamic.

You are flexible, optimistic, and expressive.

You bring honesty and intimacy to relationships.

You're good at expressing your needs to your partner.

You Are French Food

Snobby yet ubiquitous.

People act like they understand you more than they actually do.

You Will Be a Modern Bride!

While you aren't ready to throw away all wedding traditions, you want a wedding with a twist

You're more inspired by celebrity weddings on E! than from bridal magazines

Whether this means getting married on the beach barefoot or a mariachi band for the reception...

Your wedding will be a blend of old and new - white dress cocktail, personalized vows, whatever suites you!!!

You Are a Night Person

For you, there's nothing worse than having to get up and moving early.

In fact, you probably don't hit your peak until well after the sun has set.

So if your struggling to make it on a normal schedule, realize it's not your fault.

You just weren't meant to do anything during the day!

Your Rockstar Name Is...

Brooklyne Chaps

What Your Hands Say About You

You are logical, analytical, and rational. You have good verbal skills.

Idealistic and dreamy, you tend toward the impractical. You have a knack for getting yourself in sticky situations.

Brainy and intelligent, you are intellectual to the point of being incomprehensible.

Your emotions tend to be relaxed and uncomplicated. You don't read too much into things.

What Your Bathroom Habits Say About You

You are a giving soul. Way too giving in fact. You often get stuck doing the dirty work that no one else will do.

You spend a lot on clothes, and you tend to be a very dresser. However, it's hard for you to throw away trendy clothes when they go out of style.

You have the perfect blend of confidence and class. You're proud of who you are - but you don't broadcast it.

In relationships, you are practical and realistic. You have a romantic side, but you only let it out when it's appropriate.

Your Friend is Not Fake

You have a true friend - and you're smart enough to know you're lucky to have such a great friendship.

So let your friend know that you really appreciate all she's done for you... and for keeping it real!

You Are an Indie Rocker!

You are in it for the love of the music...

And you couldn't care less about being signed by a big label.

You're all about loving and supporting music - not commercial success.

You may not have the fame and glory, but you have complete control of your career.

Cheese Pizza

Traditional and comforting.

You focus on living a quality life.

You're not easily impressed with novelty.

Yet, you easily impress others.

You Are Midtown

You love so many things, you don't fit into any one label.

Your city girl persona goes to a fancy restaurant one night and a dive bar the next.

Your Dream Engagement Ring Has a Pear Diamond!

You're personal style is a mix of classic and contemporary, reseved and outgoing.

A pear diamond matches your charming personality - and is perfect to show off.

You've also got an elegant side, which is complemented a tear dropped shaped pear.

It's the perfect mix of Liz Taylor and Jessica Simpson - both wearers of this ring!

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are secretly sensitive, but you often put up a front.

Shy and private, you yearn for security.

You take relationships slowly.

You need lots of reassurances before you can trust.

If you don't get enough sleep, you are: Cranky and a big baby

It's hard to sleep next to you because: You are a light sleeper

You Are Likely a Second Born

At your darkest moments, you feel inadequate.

At work and school. you do best when you're evaluating.

When you love someone, you offer them constructive criticism.

In friendship, you tend to give a lot of feedback - positive and negative.

Your ideal careers are: accounting, banking, art, carpentry, decorating, teaching, and writing novels.

You will leave your mark on the world with art and creative projects.

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You Passed Your Driver's Test

Congratulations, you got 10/10 correct.

You're a good driver - at least, when you want to be.

Mocha Frappuccino

Hyper and driven, you'll take your caffeine any way you can get it. Frappuccinos are good, but you'd probably chew coffee beans in a crunch!

You Are Somewhat Like Your Mom

Believe it or not, you and your mom are pretty darn similar.

It may not seem like it at times, but you and your mom have a lot of common ground.

Over time, you'll probably get closer ... especially if you emphasize the things you like about each other.

Your Guy Should Bring You Home

You're classy, well-mannered, and you have great social skills.

And you're definitely sure to impress your guy's parents.

If he doesn't bring you home to meet mom, he's crazy!

You Are 62% Indie

You're a very indie person, and admit it, you look down a little on people who strive to be normal.

You'll indulge in a little mainstream pop culture every now and then. But for you, anything not indie is a guilty pleasure!

Saturday, 15 March 2008

Take 6; Action!

[_] I am shorter than 5' 4".
[_] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[_] I wish my hair was a different color.
[_] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[_] I have a tattoo.
[_] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[_] I wear/have worn glasses.
[_] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[_] I have more than 2 piercings.
[_] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[_] I have freckles.

[_] I've sworn at my parents.
[_] I've run away from home.
[_] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[_] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[_] I've had children.
[_] I've lost a child.

[x] I'm in school.
[x] I have a job.
[_] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[_] I've missed a week or more of school.
[x] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[_] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[_] I've stolen something from my job.
[_] I've been fired.

[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[_] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[_] I've glued my hand to something.
[_] I've had my pants rip in public.

[x] I was born with a disease/impairment. (kinda... kidney wasn't functioning)
[x] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[_] I've broken a bone.
[_] I've had my tonsils removed.
[_] I've sat in a doctors office/emergency room with a friend.
[_] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[x] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.
[_] I've had more than two cavities.

[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[_] I've been to Mexico.
[x] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[_] I've been to Japan.
[_] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[_] I've been to Europe.
[_] I've been to Africa.

[_] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[_] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[_] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[_] I've been to a casino.
[_] I've been skydiving.
[_] I've gone skinny dipping.
[_] I've played spin the bottle.
[x] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[_] I've crashed a car.
[x] I've been skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from Myspace. (kinda; I met him first though)
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[x] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[_] I've sat on a roof top at night. (I wish)
[_] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[_] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[x] I've been snowboarding.

[x] I'm single.
[_] I'm in a relationship.
[_] I'm engaged.
[_] I'm married.
[_] I've gone on a blind date.
[_] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[_] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[_] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[_] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[_] I've kept something from a past relationship.


[_] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[_] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[_] I am a cuddler.
[_] I've been kissed in the rain.
[_] I've hugged a stranger.
[_] I have kissed a stranger.

[_] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[_] I've snuck out of my house.
[_] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[_] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[_] I've cheated on a test.
[_] I've run a red light.
[_] I've been suspended from school.
[_] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[_] I've been arrested.

[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[_] I regularly drink.
[_] I've passed out from drinking.
[_] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[_] I've smoked weed.
[_] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[_] I've eaten shrooms.
[_] I've popped E.
[_] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[_] I've done hard drugs.
[_] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[_] I can't swallow pills.
[_] I can swallow about five pills at a time with no problem.
[_] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[_] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[_] I take anti-depressants.
[_] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[_] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[_] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[_] I'm addicted to self harm.
[_] I've woken up crying.

[_] I'm afraid of dying.
[_] I hate funerals.
[x] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[_] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[_] I've planned my own suicide.
[_] I've attempted suicide.
[_] I've written a eulogy for myself.


[_] I own over five rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[_] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[_] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[_] I own something from Hot Topic.
[_] I own something from Pac Sun.
[_] I collect comic books.
[_] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[_] I own something from Abercrombie.

[x] I can sing well. (sometimes)
[_] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[_] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news. I read it
[_] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[_] I curse regularly.
[_] I sing in the shower.
[_] I am a morning person.
[_] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar. (sometimes but only with my friends)
[x] I am a sports fanatic. (sometimes)
[x] I twirl my hair. (when I'm bored and really tired)
[_] I have "x"s in my screen name
[x] I love being neat.
[x] I love Spam. ( yes, if I'm in the mood it tastes good LOL probably wrong sort but whatever)
[_] I've copied more than 30 CDs in a day.
[x] I bake well.
[_] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
[_] I've worn pajamas to school.
[_] I like Martha Stewart.
[_] I know how to shoot a gun.
[_] I am in love with love.
[_] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[_] I eat fast food weekly.
[_] I believe in ghosts.
[_] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[_] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[_] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[_] I am really ticklish.
[x] I eat white chocolate.
[_] I bite my nails.
[_] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[_] I'm good at remembering names.
[_] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

Friday, 14 March 2008

Song Survey 2

Instructions: Put your favorite music player on shuffle and fill in the names of the songs in the order they show up. Or you could pick your own songs, but that's not as much fun. ;)

Right now, I feel: Vertigo » U2

My message to the world has always been: Bury Me (the scarlet path) » Stutterfly

My favorite thing to do is: If I Can Dream » Elvis Presley

When I'm drunk I say: Near to Far » One Star Story

This song will be playing when I meet the love of my life: My Way or the Highway » Relient K

The best thing about me is: Somewhere in Between » Lifehouse

When I'm in the shower, I sing: Sure Thing Falling » Yellowcard

The story of my life is: Killer Queen » Queen

My deepest secret is: Love » Kids In the Way

What I did last night was: Comatose » Skillet

My ultimate song for dancing is: Waste My Time » Alexz Johnson (Instant Star)

If I got lost on a desert island, I would yell: All We Were » Jimmy Robbins

My parents are like the song: Here Without You » 3 Doors Down

My innermost desire is: Little House » The Fray

At my funeral they'll play: When it Rains » Paramore

I'll have a good day if I can just hear: Undeniable » Mat Kearney

Happiness is: Lift It » Thousand Foot Krutch

This song describes my grandparents: Save Your Scissors » City and Colour

If I reached the top of Mount Everest, what I would scream: For a Moment » Stereotrap

Behind my back, my friends think I'm: Right Here » Jeremy Camp

My make-out song is: Count Yourself In » Ten Second Epic

Next time I'm in front of a crowd, I'll say: Meant to Live » Switchfoot

My day will be like: Wonderwall » Oasis

How will you die?: A Lack of Colour » Death Cab for Cutie

My birth was like: Photograph » 12 Stones

My friends see me as: Love is on the Run » Krystal Meyers

Will I ever have kids?: Lose Yourself » Family Force 5

My last words will be: Bridge to Nowhere » Sam Roberts

My theme song: Invincible » Muse