Seriously why is everyone I know hooking up. Soon I'm going to be blasting Kelly Clarkson on my car stereo. 'Oh, no, I do not hook up, up. I go slow.'
And babies? Another person I know is going to have a baby.
And weddings. I know 3 people my age-ish who are practically engaged. Probably more. Bahhhhhhh.
God help me.
Or at least leave this emptiness in the snow and fill it with yourself! I don't want love if its lust or love if its not forever. I want to do everything right once. Because I've been through enough not to want to go through it twice and come out alive on the other side. Keep my eyes focused on you and your will for me. Take away this want and help me feel genuine happiness for these people. Not contempt. Jesus you need to be the center of it all and that's where I need to aim when I fall. Your love not something the world slaps a label on and tells me I need to have and show and be. This is for you in me. Amen.
"Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?"
- Morgan Freeman, Evan Almighty (via anniesheart)