Boxing Day

Relient K -- Boxing Day 

Take it all down
Christmas is over
Do not despair
But rather be glad
We had a good year
Now lets have another
Remembering all the good times that we had

Oh no more lights glistening
No more carols to sing
But Christmas it makes way for spring

The hearts of men
Are bitter and weathered
As cold as the snow
That falls from above
But just for one day
We all came together
We showed the whole world that we know how to love

Oh no more lights glistening
No more carols to sing
But Christmas it makes way for spring
Oh no more lights glistening
No more carols to sing
But Christmas it makes way for spring

Oh remember that Christmas
It makes way for spring

Dreams: The Helper

I read in a magazine a few weeks ago that dreams are more then just a movie playing on in your head. You know how animals twitch in their sleep, usually like they are running or something? Well, supposedly some dreams help figure out what to do about certain situations. You know that old dream where people are caught in their underwear in public? Well that's just to help the person actually remember to put their clothes on before leaving, or to that effect anyways. Some of it I must admit sounds like a load of garbage. But if the research goes farther it might be more believable.

I don't know if my dreams help me ever. I never remember them so I suspect they don't. At any rate if my dreams where suppose to help me I wouldn't want to know what I was dreaming of lately. My mind feels so screwed over right now because of... everything. Stupid school. Stupid work. Stupid boys. Stupid YG. Stupid Programs. Stupid Shopping.

Where are you?

Sarah where are you? I need you so bad right now and I don't think I can make another five months without seeing you face to face. Rawr. Why does this have to happen NOW? Phone me. You know I'm desperate when I want you to phone me. Please. Just not tonight or tomorrow until 6 or Sunday (except between 2-4) because I'm working/Christmas Program at Church.

I'm malfunctioning.

Never Say Die

Never Say Die - Kids in the Way

Whispers in the wind carry messages to lovers far.
Tales of lost romance and of that missed chance and fleeting hearts.

Yesterday, befriends anger with words you say.
Don't let those dying ships sail away.
Promise me you'll never say die.

Ashes in the sand bury witnesses to broken hearts.
Scars of lone memories and of those crushed dreams and open arms.

Love songs and tidal waves have washed me away.



I don't know why I put this song up. Maybe because it seems so poetic, but I really love this
song even if it's just for that reason.

130 Random Questions

130 Random Questions
When was the last time you cried?:	Last Saturday I think....
Have you ever faked sick?:	Tried and failed
What was the last lie you said?:	...
Have you ever cried during a movie?:	Yes
Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off of?:	Haha yeah right
Have you ever danced in the rain?:	Yes. I love dancing in the rain
Have you ever been drunk?:	No
Have you ever tried tried drugs?:	Prescription only
Do you smoke?:	No
What's the farthest you've ever gone on a dare?:	Telling someone I liked them.... in grade 4 lol
What is your full name?:	Bethany Ruth
What is your blood-type?:	O or A negative
Have you ever been in a car accident?:	Minor, it was pretty sweet actually
How old were you when you recieved your first kiss?:	Never have
Who was your first kiss?:	...
Have you ever had an online relationship?:	No way
Have you ever had phone-sex?:	Sick no
Have you ever been rejected by a crush?:	No...
What is your favourite sport to play?:	Basketball, Soccer, and Football
Have you ever made a prank phone call?:	Haha yeah once and then many other attempts
Have you ever said "I Love you" and not meant it?:	Not really
What's your favourite childhood memory?:	It's too far gone to remember any
Is there anything that you have done that you regret?:	Of course, but I don't at the same time
What do you want to be when you grow up?:	...
What is your political persuassion?:	Dicatorship vs. Democracy
Have you ever had cybersex?:	What is with these questions? No way
Do you believe in g-d?:	God yes, not a measly weak god
Do you believe in love at first sight?:	Depends
Do you believe in karma?:	Uh... I like the word...
Who was your first crush?:	Lol
Who do yo uhave a crush on?:	Yeah
How would you describe yourself?:	Unique
What are you afraid of?:	Balloons popping really loud
Are you religious?:	Depends on how its defined, a little maybe but not a whole lot
What does your screen name mean?:	It's probably a nickname
What person do you trust the most?:	At the moment? Myself probably
Who was your first boyfriend/girlfriend?:	N/A
What is the best compliment you have ever recieved?:	Something about my eyes, smile, hair
What is the meanest thing anyone has said about you?:	Haha I ignore those comments
What is the longest crush/relationship you have had?:	Year and a half
What is your greatest strength?:	I'll let you decide
What is your greatest weakness?:	Probably my strength?
What is your perfect pizza?:	Oh! Four Cheese! Or a Seafood from Chigago Deep Dish
What is your first thought when waking up in the morning?:	Let me sleep longer, I'm so sleep deprived!
What is your first thought before you go to bed?:	I hope i'm not tired in the morning
What college do you want to go to?:	...
Do you get along with your family?:	For the most part I guess
Do you play any instruments?:	Guitar, a bit of bass and piano.
What kind of music do you like?:	Mainly Rock
Do you think you're attractive?:	Someimes
Would you ever get a tattoo?:	Ha maybe a small one if any
How many piercings do you have?:	One on each ear
Who makes you laugh?:	Friends and Family
Who would you want to be tied to for 24hours?:	Sarah or Natasha
Have you ever seen a dead body?:	Yes
Do you have a celebrity crush?:	Not at the moment... oh wait. yes.
What is one thing scientists should invent?:	Something uber amazing
Have you ever broken a bone?:	No but I have broken my nose a couple times
What happens after you die?:	I'll go to heaven
Do you watch or read the news?:	Yes
What stereotype would you label yourself as being?:	None
Would your friends agree with that stereotypic label?:	Yes
If yo ucould change your name, what would you change it to?:	...
If you could go back in time to one point in your life, where would you go:	Back in Time? What if I want to go to the future?
If you could change anything about yourself, what would you change?:	Eyebrows. Yes. Maybe my nose a bit
Have you ever gone skinny dipping?:	No
Have you ever played strip poker?:	No
Would you ever lie to someone to make them feel good about themselves?:	No not if they honestly do want to look good
What do you want your friends to think about you?:	That I'm a cool trustworthy person
Whats the biggest argument you've ever gotten into?:	Probably with my parents, sisters, best friend
HAve you ever bitten someone?:	Back in my terrible twos.
When's your birthday?:	April
Have you ever stolen anything?:	yes. When I was three
Do you make wishes on shooting stars?:	Yes.
Whats the most you've ever eaten in one sitting?:	A whole box and a bit of pizza.... and maybe at a buffett.
If you could go back and change one day, what would it be?:	...
Do you remember your dreams?:	Never
Have you ever been in love?:	I don't know
Are you a morning person or a night person?:	Night definetly
Do you have any phobias?:	Probably
What's the meanest thing you've ever done to someone?:	Stabbed them with a pencil... but it was all good after
Have you ever been to the hospital (other then birth?:	Yes
How many screen names do you have?:	Don't know
Do any medical problems run in your family?:	yes
Have anyone ever been disowned from your family?:	Hahahaha noooo
Have you ever had a nightmare?:	Yes
Do you say meaner things to your friends or your enemies?:	Friends? I don't have a lot of enemies
Would you ever participate in a threesome?:	Like dating threesome? No
Would you ever pay for a prostititue?:	No way
Have you ever mooned or flashed someone?:	No
Have you ever cheated on your bf/gf?:	N/A but I wouldn't
Have you ever laughed so hard you peed in your pants?:	Ha yes.
Have you ever written a love letter?:	Yes
Have you ever attempted suicide?:	No
Do you prefer boxers or briefs?:	Boxers
Have you ever been in a fistfight?:	Yes
Do you have any hidden talents?:	Maybe they wouldn't be hidden if they were known
What is one thing you want me to know about you?:	Uhhh I like frogs?
What is one question you wouldn't want me to ask?:	To be exact in my answers and not lie
Do you usually prefer books or movies?:	Books
Who is your favourite person to talk to?:	Tasha and Sarah
Who is always able to cheer you up when you're sad?:	Tasha and Sarah
Would you ever have sex before marriage?:	Never
Who do you talk to most on the phone?:	No one
Do you have a secret that yo'ure ashamed of?:	No
Do you prefer british or american spelling of words?:	Depends on the word
Have you ever gotten detention?:	Class detention not by myself
How do you vent your anger?:	Punching, playing guitar, writing songs
Have you ever been on a diet?:	No
Would you ever date someone younger than you? Older than you?:	Older by a few years, younger only by a year or so
Is your best friend a virgin?:	Last time I knew
What's a rumor someone has spread about you?:	...
What's the kinkiest thing you could ever actually see yourself as doing?:	That's not something I think about
What's the meanest thing anyone has ever done to you?:	Made fun of me hardcore
What's the nicest thing anyone has ever done for you?:	Talked to me when I was upset
Have you ever been diagnosed with a mental illness?:	No
Have you ever cut yourself on purpose?:	No
Have you ever wanted to murder someone?:	Not really
Have you ever hated someone?:	Not really
Do you prefer talking on the phone or online?:	Online mostly
Do you consider yourself popular?:	Not really
Would you ever tell the person you have a crush on that you like them?:	Sure
Have you ever had a crush on an enemy?:	Ha what enemies?
Have you ever had a crush on a best friend?:	No
What is your favourite book?:	Guitar Book things
Do you have a collection of anything?:	Elvis and Frogs
Are you happy with the person you are becoming?:	Some parts
Are you a different person now then you were 5 years ago?:	Probably
What do you see yourself as being in 5 years from now?:	Somwehere with Someone and with my best friend
Are you happy with the life you have?:	Some parts
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I Bleed Green

Yay for the Riders winning the Grey Cup! Woooooo! Yes! Haha




That is all.

Because

I wish I could just hug you because you need it.

Let You Down. The Saddest State it's Ever Been.

Apologize Seattle

One Republic -- Apologize

I'm holding on your rope, Got me ten feet off the ground

I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound

You tell me that you need me Then you go and cut me down, but wait

You tell me that you're sorry

Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall Take a shot for you

And I need you like a heart needs a beat But it's nothin new

I loved you with a fire red-

Now it's turning blue, and you say...

"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you

But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

Bridge (guitar/piano)

It's too late to apologize, it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

It's too late to apologize, yeah

I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-

I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...

~ ~ ~

The Classic Crime -- Seattle

My real estate

My life is dull

And dried up like the sound

A voice makes when the heart grows cold

And it’s going that way

I think I’ll move out of state

Somewhere far from Seattle city lights

They burn my eyes

California sounds nice but California’s a lie

Maybe I’m out of luck

Or maybe I’m just blind

All this time

Rain on my hopes

Rain on my soul

Rain on everything that I know

It feels so ludicrous

The pursuit of this dream

We thought we’d be there long ago

My life is like a rolling river

So muddy and absurd

And although I might be mistaken

I know that I’ll be heard

And I find the second I try to pull away

I’m thrown back in line

All this time

So

Rain on my hopes

Rain on my soul

Rain on everything that I know

It feels so ludicrous

The pursuit of this dream

We thought we’d be there long ago

Rain on my hopes

Rain on my soul

Rain on everything that I know

It feels so ludicrous

The pursuit of this dream

We thought we’d be there long ago

And we are all looking for the same thing

The same thing

Seattle is calling me back home

Back home

So

Rain on my hopes

Rain on my soul

Rain on everything that I know

It feels so ludicrous

The pursuit of this dream

We thought we’d be there long ago

Rain on my hopes

Rain on my soul

Rain on everything that I know

It feels so ludicrous

The pursuit of this dream

We thought we’d be there long ago

Oh Dear

What am I going to do?

The Classic Crime -- Headlights

A summer drive away from dying: a broken heart nothing to lose.
I know it hurts so bad just trying to please the ones you hate to love.
And I wrote this note about someone I used to know
so I'd remember how life can be so short when your left alone to wonder
how it is someone opens and shuts the door.

I know your cold but come home.
It's a shame how short we all have come.

You set your mind on cruise control; knuckles grip the wheel in fear to let it go.
Love is empty,love is cruel,love it blindly breaks the rules.
How could you have been a fool?
It's something all of us go through.
You choke back tears and swallow lies but those wiper blades won't fix you eyes,
count on having clouded vision for at least a little while.

And I know you're cold but come home: it's a shame how short we all have come.
And I know you're cold but come home.

Please don't face the headlights of the oncoming cars along.
We wont forget the past.
We wont forget the past. (And I know you're cold)
Say all the answers and I will let you go
I wont look back
and I wont look back.
Say all the answers
and I will let you go.
I will let you go.
I will let you go

Say all the answers and I will let you go
I won't look back
I won't look back. [x3]

Please don't face the headlights of the oncoming cars along
and I will let you go..

Steeps and Stories

So on Sunday Mel, Patricia, and I went to Steeps for tea. It was such a nice cozy place that I wouldn't mind going back there. And for someone who doesn't like to drink tea, I sure had quite a bit! Mmm but it was Lemon Drop so I can't complain, its the one type of tea that I don't mind.

So after hanging out at Steeps for a while we walked Whyte for a bit and went into a few stores. Somehow all the one's we went in had a funny smell.... maybe it was just because its Whyte or they were concession stores but eh.

Then right before leaving for home, we noticed that Earl was working and dropped in to say hi. We thought he'd give us some free bubble tea but in the end we decided that he didn't like the guy he was working with that night because he wouldn't let Earl have his much needed break. Haha what an amazing story.

Quizzes!

Your Ideal Marriage Proposal Is

Mutual, after a great conversation about your future and feelings.

What's Your Ideal Marriage Proposal?

Your Inner Eye Color Is Brown

You're smart, thoughtful, and the ideal woman for most men You are kind and easy to trust. Men open up to you like no one else. It's this inner warmness that attracts guys - and makes you an instant soulmate.

What Color Eyed Woman Are You Really?

You are a Lavender Rose

You represent love at first sight and enchantment. Your vibe: intense and intriguing Falling in love with you is: deep and meaningful

What Color Rose Are You?

You Are 8% Girly

Um... you're a guy, right? If not, you're the most boyish girl in the world. And for you, that's probably the ultimate compliment.

How Girly Are You?

You Are the Index Finger

You are ambitious, driven, and capable. You aren't afraid to take responsibility for your actions - or place the blame on whoever deserves it. You are honest, free thinking, and objective. You see things in your own way - and you aren't afraid to let everyone know about it. You get along well with: The Thumb Stay away from: The Ring Finger

What Finger Are You?

What Your Black Outfit Means

You're a sophisticated woman with big city taste. You have a strong creative force - even if you don't wear the boldest clothes. You tend to intimidate people. But the right guy won't be intimidated by you! Designer match: Dolce & Gabbana Signature accessory: Gold framed sunglasses

How Your Favorite Outfit Tells What Kind of Girl You Are

Strange Packages

Today was intense.
A spiritual high after lunch.
I went to CIA at lunch after Tawnya ditched me to sit and eat lunch with Jannet and Mira.
So I ditched her and them to go.
I almost didn't. But it was like a God thing.
So we ate lunch then said a low and high that happened in our lives.
There were only five of us at that point plus the German teacher. (who is amazing)
Then before the bell would go we got into a prayer circle and laid our hands on each other and prayed.
It was so amazing when people prayed for me because it was like the words they spoke were directly from God.
Then Heidi, this years leader, interjected at said something so strange and awing. It almost didn't make sense but it did to me somehow. Except I don't know if she meant the original phrase or what she said.
But even Josh, who didn't know me before today, prayed something like it was coming from the mouth of God.
I thank God for each of these four people if we were the core of that club.
They blessed me so much this week just by a few simple moments.


Things come in strange packages.

Othello y Love

Oh, how Othello put it so soundly! About how love sometimes is too much of that desire of flesh.

Well

I guess it's October now.



Time flys.

Tonight, tonight

YG starts tonight! Exciting! But it will be small for the first one. Still, I'm excited about meeting the new leaders and seeing Daniel, Laura, Bryce, and everyone I never really see much again. Whenever they come that is.

Nothing Left To Lose

Mat Kearney

Some thing's in the air tonight
The sky's alive with a burning light
You can mark my words some thing's about to break

And I found myself in a bitter fight
While I've held your hand through the darkest night
Don't know where you're coming from but you're coming soon

[bridge]
To a kid from Oregon by way of California
All of this is more than I've ever known or seen

[chorus]
Come on and we'll sing, like we were free
Push the pedal down watch the world around fly by us
Come on and we'll try, one last time
I'm off the floor one more time to find you
And here we go there's nothing left to choose
And here we go there's nothing left to lose

So I packed my car and I headed east
Where I felt your fire and a sweet release
There's a fire in these hills that's coming down
And I don't know much but I found you here
And I can not wait another year
Don't know where you're coming from but you're coming soon

[bridge]

[chorus]

I can still hear the trains out my window
From Hobart Street to here in Nashville
I can still smell the pomegranates grow
And I don't know how hard this wind will blow
Or where we'll go

[chorus]

Girl America

Mat Kearney

My girl America is just a youth in this world
Her smile is more precious than the sparkle of pearls
And though her age reads she's just a young girl
The age behind her eyes show the pain that she's swirled
Through the hand that's been dealt though it's quiet as kept
The weight that she felt last night when she slept
And as she crept into the dreams of the things of her past
Seems to have grown so fast, way beyond her own class
Though they're right there with her, her brothers and her sisters
A natural born leader even when her peers dis her
My girl, she's at a crossroads, people praying for her
Some are preying on her magazine ads, sex, drama
Smoking marijuana, longer for a father to call her, 'daughter'
She's part of a generation longing for reconciliation
And this future that they're facing and this poison that they're tasting
My girl, I know this love you're chasing


[chorus]

My girl America's crying when she's lying on her bed at night
I can see that she's screaming when she's dreaming for her freedom
My girl America's dying while she's trying just to stop this fight
Don't stop believing, my girl America


Boys with hungry eyes have been beating her door
Telling her that's what she's for, trying to rob at her core
Then leave calling her a whore, but still she knows there's more
I know she knows there's more because there is a voice she can't ignore
'Cause it was founded in the foundations, from the day of her creation
In God we trust engraved on the treasures of her nation
And the void that the boys can't fill
With the tipping of the bottle or the popping of the pill
But still most of her friends don't care as they glare
Ready to drown down the funnel as they frown down the tunnel
They stumble and they tumble breaking down into rubble
My girl America, stop can't you see
It's not the circumstances that determine who you're gonna be
But how you deal with these problems and pains that come your way
It's for you that I pray with hope for a brighter day
And so I say, your deliverance is coming


[chorus]

Faith like a child from your first birth
You left it in the dirt on your worst hurt
And I see each tear and every scar
The hands that have held you where you are
And I can see we've strayed so far
A king born under that morning star
As a crown of thorns was placed to erase
Each tear that's touched your face
And his palms and sides were pierced with spears
He hung in love just to draw you near
My girl, out of this whole world
Can't you see this is where we started?

[chorus]

The Ping Pong Table is Broken

I'm actually just loving the beat and intensity of this song right now. That is all, you may now carry on.




Do You Know?
Enrique Iglesias


Do you know?
Do you know?

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on
the door has changed?

If birds flying south is a sign of changes
At least you can predict this every year
Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly
I can't get it to speak
Maybe if I knew all the things it took to save us
I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
Look in your eyes to see something about me
I'm standing on the edge and I don't know what else to give.

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on
the door has changed?

How can I love you?
How can I love you?
How can I love you?
How can I love you?
If you just don't talk to me, babe.

I flow through my act
There's a question: Is she needed?
And decide all the man I can ever be.
Looking at the last 3 years like I did
I could never see us ending like this.

(Do you know?)

Seeing your face no more on my pillow
Is a scene that's never ever happened to me.

(Do you know?)

But after this episode I don't see
You could never tell the next thing life could be

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on

the door has changed?

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on
the door has changed?

(Do you know?)
(Do you know?)
(Do you know?)
(Do you know?)

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock
on the door has changed?

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
(Do you know how it feels?)
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock
on the door has changed?
(Do you know how it feels?)

(Do you know? Do you know? Do you know? Do you?)
(Do you know? Do you know? Do you know? Do you?)

Road Blog: Day 5

So we went swimming today. It was quite fun actually. George Lake XD. I thought of Curtis out there. He's like a ghost, he scares people off the beach with his radiating white glow. And I also thought of the fat, fat lady courtesy of Bradley Hathaway. Ha. But I enjoyed myself as we went swimming out to the rock which was a longer swim than what I remembered and the only bad part was getting my ears and sinuses clogged with water -_-

Tomorrow we're leaving again down to the South (ha Rumble in the South) and I get to finish reading my HP book (only on chapter 10 because I was allowed to read while we went to the beach) Not sure how much I'll be on after today so until that point.

So Adios!

Road Blog: Day 4

Today has been quite fun already. Mel and I got up at about 6 our time 8 here to go for a 10-20 min jog then we went and had our cousin photo shoot. After that I bought the new Harry Potter book for $23 plus a new t-shirt that I saw a while back and really wanted. Then we went home for lunch and then went to the giant nickel/mines. Pretty sweet. And then went for ice cream at DQ everyone is up stairs now playing Super Smash bros. Then we're going to see HP & the Order of the Phoenix later tonight.

Tomorrow I'm going swimming!

Laters

Road Blog: Day 3

So now I'm in Sudbury. Quite fun waking up early in the morning. Mmmm. Anywho. I'm just sitting here in my cousin's basement writing this. It's quite cool here. I think we're still here for a few more days, till Monday so no more traveling until then. Tomorrow we're taking a 'cousin' photo for our grandparents and then going to some crazy mining thing which m cousins have been to a million times and say is "Fun for the first time when you're seven". Ha. Great. Anyways I better be heading off again.

Later.

Road Blog: Day 2

So here I am sitting in a motel in Nipigon with internet. Unfortunately the motel yesterday didn't want to connect our internet >_>. So I'm in a little hick town right now. We had Chinese food which was good but we had to go into this pool 'house' which transforms into a bar at night. Greeeat. Anyways its not bad but right now I'm actually wondering if this is how Sarah kinda feels. Except I know this place is probably bigger still. So many houses still. But I must be heading off.

Till later.

Checka, Check Check Check

Less than a week until Ontari-ari-arioooo. And a week until the Last Harry Potter book XD and then a bit more than two months before the amazing TFK record. Yes.

La La La July Is Here!

I'm a counselor at camp now. That's a bit stressing/cool/mostly exciting for me. I'm not getting a full cabin though which is nice. Totally agree with that decision there. Gah. My room is going through cleaning/rearrangements right now too. Kinda glad because we'll get more room, though it won't be so cool. Only until Kirstin moves out. Then I'll push the beds together and have a makeshift queen size made out of two doubles =D.

Beth

Guess What?!?

More Quizzes!

You Are 48% Shy

Although you live a pretty normal life, you tend to be a fairly shy person. Many situations make you feel uncomfortable, and you sometimes find your shyness hindering your life.

How Shy Are You?

You Would Be a Pet Dog

You're friendly, loyal, and an all around good sport. People love to be near you. You are very open with your feelings, and you're quite vocal in expressing them. You are sincere and kind. You love many people - without any sort of agenda. Why you would make a great pet: You're content to chill out with your friends Why you would make a bad pet: You always find yourself getting into trouble What you would love about being a dog: Running around and playing What you would hate about being a dog: Being left home alone while everyone else is out having fun

What Kind of Pet Would You Be?

Your Personality Cluster is Introverted Intuition

You are: Multilayered and complex Inspired and driven to achieve your goals A visionary with a complete life plan Intuitive enough to understand difficult problems, ideas, and people

What's Your Personality Cluster?

Your Average American Name Is...

Karen Lynn Moore

What's Your Average American Name?

You Are Avril Lavigne!

A bit hardcore on the outside... But sweet and sensitive on the inside. "It's a damn cold night Trying to figure out this life"

Who's Your Inner Rock Chick?

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is high. You find it easy to be devoted and loyal to one person. And in return, you expect the same from who you love. Any sign of straying, and you'll end things. Experience Level: Your experience level is medium. You probably have had a couple significant loves. And you may have even had your heart broken. But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people. Dominance: Your dominance is medium. You tend to be the one with more power. You aren't a total control freak in relationships.. But of course you don't mind getting you way! Cynicism: Your cynicism is low. You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance. No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter. You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate. And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon. Independence: Your independence is medium. In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time." You usually find it easy to be part of a couple. But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered.

The Five Variable Love Test

Your Aura is Red

You have a high level of emotion. This can mean passion, but it can also mean rage. Usually, you don't take these emotions out on others. You just use them as motivation - and it works! The purpose of your life: embracing all the wonders of the life, lots of travels, and tons of adventures Famous reds include: Madonna, Marilyn Monroe, Jennifer Lopez Careers for you to try: Dancer, Boxer, Surgeon

What Color Is Your Aura?

Your Birth Month is April

You are trustworthy and highly ethical in all facets of life. Helpful and steady, you are able to solve any problem. Your soul reflects: Bliss, playfulness, and curiosity Your gemstone: Diamond Your flower: Sweet Pea Your colors: Yellow and red

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

Your Inner Blood Type is Type A

You seem cool and collected, though a bit shy. You are highly driven and a perfectionist, but that's a side you keep to yourself. Creative and artistic, you are a very unique person who doesn't quite fit in. People accept you more than you realize, seeing you as trustworthy and loyal. You are most compatible with: A and AB Famous Type A's: Britney Spears and Hilter

What's Your Inner Blood Type?

You Are a Banana Split

Fruity, flavorful, and diverse. Who can beat a true superstar?

What Kind of Sundae Are You?

He Is So Into You!

Come on, why was there any question in your mind? If he hasn't asked you out yet, he will! All signs point to strong flirtation - And that's always a good thing.

Is He Into You?

... I'm scared. But not.

Your Element Is Air

You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world. And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly. Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life. You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful. You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person. With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that!

What's Your Element?

You Are Placid and Peaceful

It's not that you're scared of most thrills It's just that you don't need them to be happy You're content with life as is... no need to change it Just make sure to let loose a little every now and then!

How Daring Are You?

You Are Pretty Happy Being Single

You have a full, fun life. And you definitely don't need love to be content. Of course, being single can get you down a little. Especially when you've been single for a while. But you know how to be patient and wait for the right person. You're life is too good to settle for anything!

Are You Happy Being Single?

Your Birthdate: April 23

People wouldn't take you for a passionate person - and that's where they'd be wrong. You can develop deep emotions quickly, and you're the type most likely to move in with someone after a few dates. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 3 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1 You are most compatible with people born on the 5th, 14th, and 23rd of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

Your Psyche is Red

You are bright, bold, energetic, and intense. Your upbeat, zany energy inspires those who are down. Spontaneous and playful, you also have a courageous and fearless side. When you are too red: you are angry, overprotective, and truly scary. When you don't have enough red: you are depleted and lifeless.

What Color Is Your Psyche?

As redone by The Showdown

Kansas - Carry on Wayward Son

Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more

Once I rose above the noise and confusion
Just to get a glimpse beyond this illusion
I was soaring ever higher
But I flew too high

Though my eyes could see I still was a blind man
Though my mind could think I still was a mad man
I hear the voices when I'm dreaming
I can hear them say

Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more

Masquerading as a man with a reason
My charade is the event of the season
And if I claim to be a wise man, well
It surely means that I don't know

On a stormy sea of moving emotion
Tossed about I'm like a ship on the ocean
I set a course for winds of fortune
But I hear the voices say

Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more
No!

Carry on, you will always remember
Carry on, nothing equals the splendor
Now your life’s no longer empty
Surely heaven waits for you

Carry on my wayward son
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry (don't you cry no more)

Personal Insight for the Broken Minded

Let's just say that one friend fails another one stands up strong.

Lately I've been getting taught a lot of different things: The weekend was crazy especially when I lost my voice. Which made everything suckier. But Sunday. Crazy. I was taught through songs alone that I was never alone, there is a deeper, greater love for me. I need to rely on His love alone most of all before anything greater can come from that. I'll be let down by anything else if I can't understand this first.

Secondly: E-mail someone for advice that you haven't e-mailed forever because they'll love to hear your personal life. Trust me. And if you mention Justin Timberlake they'll think he's gay. Literally. It's pretty flippin awesome.

Through them though things may become clearer. Take it from my view though. Everything I've read in that one e-mail sounds so hard but if I Talk about it, those things may become real and not seem as hard., if I put all my trust in Him.


And last but definitely not least:

Have you heard Thousand Foot Krutch's new song "What Do We Know?" good Our Lady Peace-ness stuff going on there (Trev of TFK loves Our Lady Peace especially since they're from the same city XD)

Peace out Kids,
Beth

One or the Other

I either did the stupidest or best, most amazing thing last night. It was definetly the bravest thing I've done yet this far though. And what the outcome will be...

Hopefully it won't be the last night or an ironic outcome of sorts.

Excitement!

Thousand Foot Krutch -> The Flame In All Of Us (September 18)

So excited! The title track sounds amazing from the short snippet I heard!

It makes me feel like running! This place makes me feel like transforming! This flame in all of us the same.

Cover Letter for my Life

So, let's see... I haven't done a formal big update for a while now. So here I go:

Math is pretty much sucking as usual. I think at the state I'm in though I'm going to have to drop to applied, which is even more sucking because I am passing the course otherwise. Yup. That's my only sucking class. And other ones I'm just get high seventies. Come on, show me the eighties + nineties = honors baby.

Got a email from Tasha this morning. Even though it was a group e-mail it's still good to know she's doing alright even if members of her group aren't. If anyone wants the email forwarded to them just comment and I'll send it straight to you.

Um... going out to camp tonight. I don't want to stay overnight but I have to. It sucks because the Capilano Talent night to tonight and I can't go/perform because of that. =( Oh well, if it was because of something dumb like work I'd be mad not sad. I'll go to CYG on the 15 because 1) it's the wrap up and 2) I can't go next week on their camping trip for various reasons. So to get back on topic, at least tomorrow I learn basic first aid, and I get to see camp people whom I haven't seen in forevers! Muchos amor.

That's about all I can do for now. Till later,

Beth

Agree? Si o No?

Sometimes when I'm happy, loving, bouncing up and down
It's my real name I want to hear

And when I'm depressed, anxious, contemplative
It's those nicknames I hold so dear

Coming Up

Sports Night Friiiiday!

Hope it doesn't rain.

Lately (this is what I've found)

No test or temptation that comes your way is beyond the course of what others have had to face. All you need to remember is that God will never let you down; he'll never let you be pushed past your limit; he'll always be there to help you come through it.

1 Corinthians 10:13 (The Message)

Everything I'm Not

: The Veronicas

Oh no
Don't go changing
That's what you told me from the start
Thought you where something different
That's when it all just fell apart
Like [it's] so perfect
And I can't measure up
Well I'm not perfect
Just all messed up

I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the [boy] that you want
[He] was tearing us apart
Cause [he's] everything
Everything I'm not

It's not like I need somebody
Telling me where I should go at night
Don't worry you'll find somebody
Someone to tell how to live their life
Cause [he's] so perfect
And no one measures up
Yeah all by yourself
You're all messed up

I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the [boy] that you want
[He] was tearing us apart
Cause [he's] everything
Everything I'm not

Now wait a minute
Because of you
I never knew all the things that I had
Hey don't u get it
I'm not going anywhere with you tonight
Cause this is my life

I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the [boy] that you want
[He] was tearing us apart
Cause [he's] everything
Everything I'm not

But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the [boy] that you want
[He] was tearing us apart
Cause [he's] everything
Everything I'm not

If I had one wish

Techno techno techno. Yes. Random but I'm off to work so I'll update with some other [not] useful information later.

Planes, Praires, and a Wedding

Mel and I flew down to London (Ont.) for my cousin's wedding. Crazy good times. They had to check my bag and it ended up that it was only my sandwich and on the way back my belt. Crazy. Sooooo. Yeah it was lots and lots of fun and I can't wait until July when we go back. And the wedding was very nice. Yup. And I don't work until Wednesday and thats the only time this week. Cool Beans.

And I have a crap load of homework due tomorrow and I'm sick and tired of Meka or Mika or however it's spelt and his song "Grace Kelly". Get out of my head!!!!!!!!!

Last Post of April? Song Lyrics!

Lifehouse - First Time

We're both looking for something
We've been afraid to find
It's easier to be broken
It's easier to hide

Looking at you, holding my breath
For once in my life I'm scared to death
I'm taking a chance letting you inside

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as a scar under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
Whenever I'm alone with you tonight
Like being in love with you for the first time

The world that I see inside you
Waiting to come to life
Waking me up to dreaming
Reality in your eyes

Looking at you, holding my breath
For once in my life I'm scared to death
I'm taking a chance letting you inside

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as a scar under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
Whenever I'm alone with you tonight
Like being in love with you for the first time

We're crashing
Into the unknown
We're lost in this
But it feels like home

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as a scar under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
Whenever I'm alone with you tonight
Like being in love with you for the first time

Like being in love she said for the first time
Like being in love with you the first time

Because I love Lifehouse and it's the new single off their record Who We Are (June 26)


Ten Second Epic - Count Yourself In

Beyond the common grind, the 9 to 5
The dead end jobs we try, we try to hide.
We struggle through the means to meet the ends.
Please tell me that this life isn't permanent.

'Cause we don't care enough. (We don't care enough)
So don't hold it off.
You're what gets me off (gets me off)
And gets me through long and sober days.

You don't deserve to be unnoticed.
You don't deserve to be treated like that.
We've gone too far to be unnoticed

Days and weeks go by, and seasons change.
The scenery gets old, it stays the same.
There's nothing in this town, but you and I.
So baby pack your bags 'cause we leave tonight.

'Cause we don't care enough. (We don't care enough)
So don't hold it off.
You're what gets me off (gets me off)
And gets me through long and sober days.

You don't deserve to be unnoticed.
You don't deserve to be treated like that.
We've gone too far to be unnoticed.
So let's get gone.

You don't deserve to be unnoticed.
You don't deserve to be treated like that.
We've gone too far to be unnoticed.
So let's get gone.

So we've spent our nights awake;
Passed every small town along the way.
Here's to bad times;
They were the best times.
Give up the good times,
And we'll survive.

You don't deserve to be unnoticed.
You don't deserve to be treated like that.
We've gone too far to be unnoticed.
So let's get gone.

You don't deserve to be unnoticed.
You don't deserve to be treated like that.
We've gone too far to be unnoticed.
So let's get gone.

annnnnnd I'll add more to this post later....

Agonize Over Moderately Poor Attempts

Ouch. That hurt, thanks.



EDIT:
Do you wish for me to elaborate?

Tonight

Capilano Tonight! Yay!!!!!11!one!! And in celebration, a song with the same name:


Tonight
Jeremy Camp

In this time,
I know I need to be more broken,
Then I find,
I feel this passion grow,
To face all that’s been lost,
It’s not to late to give control now,
I don’t know why I wait,
You’re always calling me

[CHORUS]
Tonight,
I will take my cross,
Tonight,
I will count the cost,
Tonight I realize to take hold of this very moment

In this time,
You draw me by these words you’ve spoken,
I feel inside,
This never ending hope,
I’ve placed all that I trust in knowing one day I will see you,
The only thing worth holding onto is holding onto me

I will take this moment
And I feel that it’s closer
And I kneel to show you this desperate heart of mine

Sour Seventeen?

Sour is always better though. That's what Mr. T said. He's said "So its not sweet sixteen so it must be... sour seventeen?" Yup. I like sour stuff so its okay by me. Yayness. I survived another year. Let's see if I can survive this year.... Yes.

Shout-out to Fish! Thanks for the birthday... wish, I guess you could say? =D.
And to my other friends at school who remembered
And Jordan and Tynan who called me a day early but I was okay by that.

And to that freakin chick who stole my decorations of my locker. What goes around comes around... Watch out for the bean pole and me... (aka Curtis and myself XD)

Surprise?! Why yes, yes it is

So so so. Just a reeeeally quick update.

This week's Youth Group: with Capilano's. Yay for more then one reason! XD
Next Friday: In Ontari-ari-o. shweeeet.
Monday: That dreaded day that one becomes older and therefore either feels more stupid or smarter and a gets a whole lot more back pain and headaches. Ouch =D.

So if you want to post a comment on the Monday topic.... wait until Monday because I guarantee that I will have a post that day. All for now.

Count Down!

Ten Random Things About Me:
10. I've been playing the guitar for just about four years
9. I have no feeling on the side of one of the fingers on my left hand
8. I have had the same hair style my whole life (in a ponytail XP)
7. After grade 12 I'm getting a fawk hawk (or something of the like)
6. Of famous old skool bands my 3 faves in order are: Elvis, Queen, the Beatles
5. I own more frog things then any one else I've met
4. I'm a computer genius.... of sorts
3. Mel and I use to look like twins
2. I'm not interested in stories with vampires... seriously! XD
1. I try to be humorous if the atmosphere in a place is gloomy. Unless I'm the gloomy one...

Nine Things I Want To Do Before I Die:
9. Find the guy I would want to spend the rest of my life with.
8. Have kids if I ever got married
7. Travel through out the state Washington
6. Buy a Chevy Pick-up from the 1950's
5. Build a small recording studio
4. Release one CD
3. Write a book if ^ (the above) doesn't work out
2. Meet: Dave Pelsue, Trevor McNevan, Jason Wade, Christian Lindskog, Krystal Meyers, and Kelly Clarkson
1. Drink a million energy drinks in one day

Eight Ways To Annoy Me:
8. waking me up early in the morning
7. make me eat food I don't like
6. give me too many tasks
5. make me do housework right before/after work
4. do something after I tell you to stop
3. comfort me when I'm in a bad mood ... I will bite your head off
2. find out an amazing song has a swear in it ... you didn't need to do that =(
1. take something of mine without asking/after I say no

Seven Things I Need:
7. more time with God
6. love
5. sleep
4. foooooood (rawr or I get annoyed =D)
3. friends
2. music
1. God

Six Favorite Things In My Room:
6. clothes....
5. blankets
4. frogs (XD)
3. books
2. Cd's
1. acoustic guitar

Five Things I'm Scared Of:
5. Losing the people I love
4. Not getting married when I'm older
3. Getting hurt by the guy I love (nerd = me ; it sounds too cliche XD)
2. Dying painfully and slowly (not dying itself however)
1. Being rejected, dejected, subject to decay (well I was but Jesus saved me so that doesn't count in a sense I suppose)

Four Things I Do Everyday:
4. Eat
3. Sleep
2. Breathe
1. Repeat

Three Things I'll Never Forget:
3. crushes (unfortunately)
2. family/friends
1. God's love for me

Two Things I'll Always Cherish:
2. Family/Friends
1. God's Love for me when I don't deserve it

One Confession I Must Make:
1. I have never kissed a boy/been on a date

o.O Is this you?

Complicated - Avril Lavigne

Uh huh, life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh, that's the way it is
Cause life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh that's the way it is

Chill out whatcha yelling' for?
Lay back it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
you will see
I like you the way you are
When we're drivin' in your car
and you're talking to me one on one but you've become

Somebody else round everyone else
You're watching your back like you can't relax
You're tryin' to be cool you look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
And you fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty
and promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no

You come over unannounced
dressed up like you're somethin' else
where you are and where it's at you see
you're making me
laugh out when you strike your pose
take off all your preppy clothes
you know you're not fooling anyone
when you've become

[repeat bridge and chorus]

Ha I just heard this song on the radio the other day and I thought to myself: How many people do I know that are actually like this? Two faced, in a sense, to be something one minute and someone else the next? I know quite a few. And then I know a few people (mainly one actually), who would probably take this song with another meaning, sort of, and apply it to someone they know. Yes. That's all for now I guess.

Got Talent? No? Then Don't Bash!

So we had our school's talent show today which was pretty good, except for the lack of energy in the gym. Come on people, do the wave or something! I hate how people bash other people though. Seriously, get a life or show me that you have talent and therefore can bash them to a point. Such as the bagpiper. Just because you don't like the person doesn't mean she's bad. She was really good. Why don't you try playing the bagpipes? That's what I thought. And Jolene (sp?). That made me really mad. Just because she found comfort in God doesn't make it right to bash her. So what if I start bashing Buddha or Muslim faiths? That is so going to become a song. Thank you everyone to voting to this. I now know what you need to hear.

Well, Jolene sang a lovely song and was my second favourite. My favourite being Life Sentence, because their band only had one female who was also the bassist and lead singer. Then Frankie with his magic show was good. And the short video clips were cool as well.

That's about it but I wish we could preform at the talent show but Sarah doesn't go to the same school as us so it would have been quite hard.

I Will Be [aka: She Is]

The Fray - She Is Lyrics

Do not get me wrong I cannot wait for you to come home
For now you're not here and I'm not there, it's like we're on our own
To figure it out, consider how to find a place to stand
Instead of walking away and instead of nowhere to land

This is going to break me clean in two
This is going to bring me close to you

She is everything I need that I never knew I wanted
She is everything I want that I never knew I needed

It's all up in the air and we stand still to see what comes back down
I don't know where it is, I don't know when, but I want you around
When it falls in place with you and I, we go from if to when
Your side and mine are both behind it's indication

This is going to bring me clarity
This'll take the heart right out of me

She is everything I need that I never knew I wanted
She is everything I want that I never knew I needed

This is going to bring me to my knees
I just want to hold you close to me

She is everything I need that I never knew I wanted
She is everything I want that I never knew I needed


God only knows if I'll be like that to a guy one day. Thank goodness for The Fray.

Peachy April Fool's

So, this weekend was fun. Not really actually but it was in a way. So Saturday night Mel and I were goofing around after watching hockey highlights and she might have cracked my right arm because it's all swollen now. So we got it x-rayed yesterday and we'll find out if I need a cast or if it's a nasty bruise. But it was quite funny actually. And then I April Fooled Mel and Sarah into believing I need a cast because it was a slight crack all the way up my arm. Ha. It was awesome.

More later.

~*~

I Feel so pushed away. And now I'll do the same.

Hey Ho, [It's Off to Work] Let's Go!

Wow, so this doesn't feel like spring reak at all. More like work-during-the-day week. That sums up this week Other then I bought 3 cds got 2 cds free, bought Tasha a small present, gave Paula her books and presents... yup.

Life of... Me, not Pi.

So Sarah is staying at our house, for I don't know how long. I'm not really mad or opposed to this, and everyone is getting use to it quickly. I guess in a way it just is awkward right now and a bit weird having someone not related to us stay in our house. The closest person I can think of that has stayed with us with no relation is my dad's second cousin, so my... third cousin? or second once removed or something? All confusing. But yes. I'm at school right now and have to go soon. And I have to work tonight. AND the re-release of Family Force 5's album comes out today which I can't get because I work right away. ;_; Sorrow. But I'll get someone in my family to go out and buy it for me. Plus Mel has like 3 or so cd's she wants. Yes.

Broken Soul ;; No Place to Go

Well, after last night I can only say that we need more practice. So much for being the optimist in the group. When those other girls were practicing their songs I told Mel and Sarah it's a totally different style from what we play. Still, for other reasons, my soul seems to be broken and be bleeding.

My life has no direction. It's not spinning at all yet my head is so blurred. I have no life after high school. And I can't work much longer. There's nothing for me to do. Maybe after high school I should go to BC and live with my grandparents for a year or so and work around town there, do some soul searching. I'd miss so many people here that I can't even begin to name for fear that we'll grow apart and they'll change, and I'll change, and they won't like me anymore the way they use to, they won't love me like they did before. But maybe I can find something I like and love and am proud of and am almost worthy of doing.

Wee Morning Hours

So it's... early in the morning. Day OF the concert. When i should be getting sleep. But I'll take a nap tomorrow. Thank goodness for naps. Which I don't take unless I'm sick. W00! Rock On!

I'm sleepy so I can't think of what to write in this blog post thingy. Sarah says, in her words exactly, to put more fire on the wood.

And last but not least. If you want to listen to a humourously good but creepy awesome song listen to Cuckoo by Neon Horse. That is all, as Sarah sings along with the cuckoo parts of the song. Yes.

Goodnight!

The Crap-tastic Adventures Of, well, Me

*First off let me say that I'm sorry but I'll be using crap a whole lot in this post.*

Looks like I have another crap-tastic week ahead of me. And I'm not abandoning that lovely attitude about it either unless it suddenly looks up which is so doubtful.

So first off I suddenly work three times this week. Okay, whatever I can handle that to an extent. But then I work Tuesday for the first time in months. The day I was planning to go score a copy of the new Relient K cd Four Score and Seven Years Ago. Total suckage because I can't even go after school cause I work right after school until closing. Which is the same closing time as every other well meaning store in the city.

Then Friday I work again. Normally this wouldn't bug me other then the fact that youth group is that night so it sort of does bug me. BUT this week especially because it's probably our 'last' chance to practice before the Sunday night coffee house gig which everyone is looking forward to. So I'm getting driven over to Church right after work and Mr.T said that because we actually do have a performance we can use the mic's that night to practice. Kudos to him and my mom who's going to drive me even though I'll me cranky and mean because of crappy work. To make matters worse however is that we get mark summaries at school Friday and I know mine are down the drain because of work. Which is when I spring the point about quitting work on my parents. It's not even like I really need the money except to fly down to Ontario in May and I'm going to quit anyways for the summer. So there's that

Then Saturday I work. Nobody, and I do mean nobody, at our work will agree to work a Saturday if they: A) aren't scheduled to work B) can avoid it. And for the last four months I haven't had a free Saturday. It's always craptasticly busy and my co-worker on Saturday (who also always works at the same time as me Saturday but doesn't mind it) is always nagging on my do to things I can't manage to because of the freaking load of people that come in always right before we close. Another reason to quit because I'm not going to put up with that.

The only good thing is that come next Sunday I will be having a blast at the coffee house with my partner-in-crime, one of my best friends, and a whole group of people that we know and don't after we finish preforming our two songs. Yay! And that is one of my many rants that I need to write in the next week.