everything that i'm made of starts to melt away

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Twelve. The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain.

Dear Self, 

       Why do you do those things that you know you shouldn't? You hear the voice telling you that you will regret it and yet there you go anyways. And you do regret it. Always. It needs to stop. When that happens go play a video game or, better yet, look at the paper and look at all the murders and deaths. You don't want to be the one doing those things.


You were doing so much better for a time there and then something snapped back. You can blame the people. But it comes down to who's the bigger man here. And you can't be that if you go ahead and do things you're going to regret. You know that its the truth.


Love,
Yourself.