how could we know that night would bring us into daylight

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Eight. Your Favourite Internet Friend.

Dear Ali,

       I miss talking to you so much! You helped me through hard times and good times. I love how you introduced me to so many different bands and also to making graphics. My favourite rp's were always with you and the stories and characters we made from/for them will remain my favourite. 

       I hope you are doing well with life. Last time I talked to you I remember you saying that you were going into massage therapy.... or something like that. Have you stuck with it or have you decided to do something different?


We still need to make a trip to Moose Jaw. I miss you a whole heck of a lot. 


Beth~ (aka Shawty (lol))

i can breathe for the first time, i'm so movin' on

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Seven. Your Ex-Boyfriend/Girlfriend/Love/Crush.

Dear Ex-Crush,


       I want to be so over thinking about you. But when you show up I can feel my heart flutter a little. It's doing it less though, which I'm glad of. And, most honestly, if you are into her just ask her out already. Don't be stupid and shy and whatnot. Because the worst thing that will happen is rejection. Hm isn't that the truth. Then you move on. If you ever had asked me out after what happened  I can say with confidence that I probably would have said no. Everything in my body would have conflicting feelings about it and I, while probably regretting not, would be much happier not worrying about you and a relationship the way my life has played out up until now. I have to say that the other week when I was looking at a friend who was near where you were standing and caught your eye was pretty awkward. But I wasn't looking at you.


Next time I see you I'll be over you. M~wah!


B.

may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Six. Stranger.

Dear Stranger,


      Like any safety-conscious parent would tell their kid, I was told not to talk to you. However, I've grown up and at my work I have to talk to strangers. So I want to tell you, stranger, is that you are not alone even when you think you might be. Someone right now is thinking about you. It could be a kid that was in your class for one year in elementary but that person is wondering what happened to these people and what became of them. Someone out there is willing to love you too. You are always loved no matter what you may tell yourself. I am telling you now: You are loved. The hard times may come at you full force but after the storm there is always sun. Maybe it doesn't feel like that now, and maybe you have never known anything but storms in your life. But maybe you just need to step out of your routine: Drive a different way home, ride a bike instead, work up the guts to talk (because the worst that could happen means that person didn't want to know the beautiful person that is you. You don't deserve that), learn an instrument, save an animal from a local shelter. Try to do something different once a day. It can be the smallest change (driving a different route or a different food you've never had) to a huge new extreme that you never would have thought to do (skydiving or scuba diving). Try it and see how your life brightens up and opens new possibilities for you. 


God Bless,

Beth

only in your dreams so exit the fall

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Five. Your Dreams.

Dear Dreams,

      You are something I love to hate. A sweet escape. A drowning place. In my subconscious you make me remember what has happened through the day or that I am stressing over. Not cool. Though I will give you credit for giving me a good story idea. But at the same time I'd almost rather not remembering my dreams like I use to do. They were just dreams that stayed forgotten because they don't matter. So next time I fall into sleep please don't taunt me. Thanks.

B

it's not always easy, but i'm here forever

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Four. Closest Sibling.

Dear Pooh Bear,


      Haha I haven't called you that in forever, have I? Well there we go. I don't know what to say to you because I see you everyday and tell you a lot of things. But I don't always tell you everything. You are one of my closest friends and probably will be until we die. You make me laugh and cry and want to die. You think I laugh at you all the time. And you're right; I do. But I'm not laughing because you are ugly or whatever it is you think. I'm laughing because you did whatever it is you do to make me laugh.

       We need to find more Adventure Times to watch. Like Ricardio. And that gross magic one blah. Anyways chill out. I'll see you tomorrow when I get up and we go to Pier 1. Until then.

Hot Tamales.

its business up front and a party in the back

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Three. Parents.

Dear Parents,
      
      I was originally going to write you separate letters but then I decided against it. Why, you may ask? Well I'm lazy but I also thought it was tacky. Haha kidding. I just thought that since its the 30-day letter and not letters I would only write one.

      Really all I want to say is thanks for the memories. I'm outta here. =) No, really I want to say thanks for taking care of me since I was born and giving me support and feeding me and giving me food. So thanks for that.


      But I also want to say that you guys better lay off on some stuff at times. I'm an adult and I need my own space and time and all that good stuff. I understand that it can't be all that easy since almost all of your kids are adults now but please don't treat us like we don't know how to get along in the outside world. You've raised us pretty dang well and I think we can deal for ourselves. Indeed.

     I'll be sticking around for another two years but later I'm looking for my own space. It will be good times. I need to start a new chapter in my life at some time 'rents.


Love your number two.

PS. Happy Father's Day Dad.

i don't know you but i want you (all the more for that)

30 Day Letter Challenge Day Two. Crush.

Dear Crush,

       I don't see you very often but you make my life worthwhile when I do. When you look over in my direction my heart skips and I wish you would just talk to me. We have similar interests (music) and as I watch you play your guitar with all that love and determination in your face I find myself falling even more for you. The way you play the piano fills my soul with joy. You make me forget about him and I wonder if you ever sad about losing her. I don't want to date in sympathy so you won't be a rebound when I never even dated him. I don't really know you but my sister kinda does and many other friends of mine do. If there was a way to talk to you I would. But I'm scared at the same time. But I would overcome my fears to be with you. Why can't we just talk and see where it goes from there? Ha, yeah like that will ever happen. Maybe this is why crushes are stupid ridiculous things. Yeah. See you tomorrow.

Beth~